[chrise]

my depression has hit rock bottom . i cant go any lower. many symptoms are not under control. my thoughts have gotten quite dark. im afraid of telling my therapist for fear that he will put me in the hospital. im feeling very alone. that just adds to the depression. on yhe outside i look good but on the inside im falling apart.

[ladyjrnlist]

I am right there with you. I just got out of the hospital a few days ago. It helped. Don't be afraid of that.

[Leed]

What is so awful about going in the hospital? I've been there and actually it wasn't so bad! I'm very glad I went in. I stayed for 2 weeks ~ I signed myself in so that I could get out whenever I wanted to. But I stayed as long as my doctor said I should.

While you're in, you get intense therapy, along with group therapy. Plus you have some free time too. I'm so glad I did it. I needed to get away from the "outsiders." I needed to be among people like me.

Sometimes when we're that sick, it's best to be inpatient for our own good. I know it was best for me. And the intense therapy was just what I needed. It wasn't scary at all. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee

[chrise]

i have been in the hospital many times. my dark thoughts will probably put me there again. but its my daughters birthday tomorrow. i dont know if i can stick it out.