[wi_fighter]

I don't want to post in here. I want to blog, but it's acting up right now.

I was feeling so good on 150 mg of Wellbutrin. Since I've upped it to 300 per M.D. instructions, I've felt worse than when I'm not on anything. Can't sleep, head hurts, stomach is queasy, irritable, hopeless, helpless, DEPRESSED!

300 mg is the "average" therapeutic dose. Cripes! I can't even do medication right. If 150 helped me feel motivated, energetic, alive, NORMAL, was it just a placebo effect? I don't care what it was. I want that feeling back.

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((((((((wi))))))))))))))))))))))))

you need to call your doctor. some people do not do well with certain AD's and the wrong one can actually make some worse. Please call, OK?

I'm concerned.

KD

[wi_fighter]

I just did. He's only in on Tuesdays.

[kimmydawn]

wi, there is a doctor on call? if not, i would call my pharmacist and see if you should get in to see someone, ok?

let me know.

kd

[wi_fighter]

I called back. They said I had to talk to my caseworker. I left voicemail for him.

I feel like a big failure. I can't even do the required medication right.

[wi_fighter]

I don't want to deal with this anymore. My head hurts and I'm tired and I can't stop crying.

I just checked my daughter's grades online. F's in everything but Algebra - D, Art - D+. English, Spanish, Science, Health, Gym, History - All F's.

I don't understand it. Why is she doing this to herself? How can I help her when I can't even help myself?

I'm not suicidal. Just feeling more helpless and hopeless than I have ever.

[dexter]

WI... this has nothing to do with "doing medication 'right'" it is just the way you are responding to the Wellbutrin.

I don't think that the 150 was a placebo. Maybe that is just the right dosage for you.

This is definitely something you should work out with your doctor... and I also agree that this is something you should consider urgent and talk to whoever is "on call" for him... don't wait for him to be available to you on his schedule.

I hope the caseworker calls you back... if not, call again, find out who is on duty to take care of you, you have an urgent issue with your meds and a recent med change, and make them put you on with someone who can help you. There has to be a doctor available at all times for emergencies.

Good luck with this WI, and maybe with some time back on the lower dose of the Wellbutrin it will turn out to be just the right thing for you. Wellbutrin was the first thing that seemed to make any positive difference for me. I was on the maximum dose for a while, I didn't /don't have any problems with it, but of course that is me, everyone will respond differently. My point is just stay in touch with your doctor until you find out something that responds well for you.

I was on 150 mg of Wellbutrin and then my doctor up my dose to 300mg. I felt worse then I was before and like you I was physically sick all the time. I couldn't keep any food down and I was suicidal. I stopped the 300 mg and went back to the 150 mg. I didn't asked my doctor I just did it but don't do that, ask your doctor first. I'm just reckless when I don't care at all about myself. This week I haven't been physically sick at all and I'm starting to concentrate better again which I couldn't do on the 300 mg and I have also stopped being dizzy.

I don't know if it is because you up the dose that you feel this way but you really need to tell this to your doctor.

I hope you feel better soon.
Many hugs!
time0

[wi_fighter]

Thanks Dexter. The caseworker called back. He's going to talk to the doc on Tuesday and I have a T session on Thursday. (Did I already say that in here? I'm feeling too yucky to go back and look).

I'm feeling so snappish tonight. My daughter won't stop talking to me. She got ticked off at a credit counseling commercial where the wife accidentally throws out the bill and the guy is digging in the garbage for it. She was going on and on about a frickin commercial. I finally told her to get over it, it's a stupid commercial. I just want her to shut up.

I had a really scary experience this afternoon when I went to pick her up from school. I pulled out of the bank parking lot and almost hit a guy walking across the street - because I couldn't concentrate and felt so horrible - shaky, headache, vision not so great.

Tonight I've been trying to do as much as possible around the house since I couldn't work today. I managed to wash a sink full of dishes, do a load of clothes, and fold some that have been sitting in baskets for weeks (maybe months, I don't even know anymore).

Just counting the minutes until I can go to bed.

[wi_fighter]

time0, that's what I'm going through too. I just threw up the food I ate this evening. I feel like a pile of you know what today, really feeling bad about myself, just wanting to go away. I felt great on 150 - I was able to sleep, I had a normal amount of energy, I was able to concentrate and work.

I still can't convince myself that 150 is going to be an acceptable dose in the doctor's mind, though. Like, if 300 doesn't work it's the wrong medication. He did tell me to go back to 150 if I couldn't tolerate 300, but maybe that's just so I didn't quit it all at once.

[dexter]

If he already told you to go back to the 150 I'd say do so right away and see how you feel.

Don't assume that he intends to take you off it entirely. If he does intend to take you off of it tell him that you really think that the 150 is doing well for you, you feel better on it, and would like to give it some more time to see if you improve more just on the 150.

People react very differently to different doses and if you think that 150 is really helping you, make sure you make that clear to him... if he still wants to switch you to a different med, ask him to explain why, since you feel like the 150 is working successfully. He may have good reason, but he should be able to make you feel comfortable with the decision at least.

Good luck, I hope you can get some relief over the weekend.

shirley, my pdoc only upped me to 200 from 150. not many side effects at all. go back down to the 150. 150 probably will work for you. you're not failing anything. you're just depressed and ill.

[jmo531]

Shirley,

I dont know much about Wellbutrin or the effects as I do not have any personal experience with it. But I do have a question and please tell me if it s dumb question. Well, its more of a statement. Anyway, I am under the impression that you a pretty tiny, short and thin. Maybe, the 150 dosage is correct for your build. Like I said, maybe that is stupid. Sorry.

[wi_fighter]

Jen, not stupid at all. I was wondering the same thing. I'm 5' and 125 lb. at the moment. (Appetite shot through the roof when I was on Celexa).

I feel way better today.

[jmo531]

I am glad your feeling better today. Are you still taking the 300 or did you cut back to 150?

Maybe ask the Doc if you might do better on 150 because you are so tiny.

Take care of you tiny girl

[wi_fighter]

Cut back to 150. I feel way better than baseline even on that small dose.