[7wallpaper7]

I have been suffering from episodes of extreme unhappiness for around a year and a half. These episodes often happen when I'm alone. During them, I'm overwhelmed with a feeling that I'm completely worthless, I'll fail at life, I'm ugly, stupid, etc. Nothing seems to cheer me up, the future seems like a horrible place, I can't move or distract myself because I'm crying so hard. Then I feel even more worthless because I wonder why I'm depressed when my life isn't bad, I feel melodramatic. My life is average I do averagely well in school, I feel ugly but I know I look average, I think all the averageness just makes it worse, like I have no place, am ridiculously unimportant. I feel like crap. And then, after about an hour I'm fine. I feel nit bit apathetic and still can't concentrate, but otherwise ok. Until the next day. And repeat everyday. I dismiss it when the episodes aren't in progress and when they are i can't do anything. But all the other hours of the day, I'm relatively ok. What should I do?

[Leed]

First I think you need to talk to a doctor. Have you noticed any pattern to these episodes ~ by that I mean are they EVERY day, all thru the month, or are there periods where you feel fine? You could have a thyroid problem or there could be a hormone imbalance. You don't say how old you are, but talk with your parents too. Let them know how serious this is. Tell them that you really should see your doctor for some tests. If need be, your doctor can refer you to the proper professional. God bless and please let us know how you come out. Hugs, Lee

[GB52]

Hi 7Wallpaper7

I think as Leed says, its good to get things checked out with your doctor first to make sure that there is nothing biological going on and whilst you are doing that there is no harm in logging your moods in a diary or journal to help give you some insight about what events affect your moods for the worse or better.

Your feelings are there for a reason it doesn't matter that you haven't got a terrible life to account for feeling so bad but there is something about how you write that makes me think you feel unimportant or not heard by people in general is that the case?

I understand the feeling bad for an hour and then being okay again, when I feel like that I understand that I am a bit like a simmering pot and for that hour I boil over and overspill and then once I have done that I gradually get back to simmering again. The problem with that is the emotion overspills when you get to crisis point but you perhaps struggle to identify with emotion at other times which means that you are not able to look at the emotion when you are feeling better and rationalise it so it just keeps going round in a big circle. You say that this has been going on for 1 1/2 years is there anything that happened at about that time that you can remember that might have set this off?

My thoughts are with you 7Wallpaper7 take care

[7wallpaper7]

Thank you so much for replying to my message, your comments have been a great help. You're right GB52, sometimes I do feel unheard, I always try to work up the courage to talk to someone about how I feel, but I am rather uncomfortable with sharing any deeper feelings with people face to face, and I feel like it's not necessary after the episode is over. But now I will definitely try use your comments to help me gather the courage to talk to a doctor. To kind of answer your question Leed, I'm a teenager. There was no particular event that happened 1 1\2 years ago to set this off, not that I can remember, it's just the time that the first episode.
What brings you two to the site? If you need to talk, I'd love to try to help too.
Once again thank you,
7wallpaper7

[Earl Sweatshirt]

If you are aware of the fact that you get depressed when you are alone, why not just force yourself to be around people more. Volunteer, get a job, talk to people, get outside and say hi to strangers. Loneliness and isolation are certainly factors that can contribute to making a person depressed.

Since the future hasn't happened yet, you shouldn't be convincing yourself that it is a "horrible place." There are lot's of things you can try to improve your situation. Things sound like they suck right now. If you have trouble with anxiety in social situations, you can always get some medications to help you cope.

Also, talk to your family/someone that cares about you about how you are feeling. This forum is a great place to get out your emotions, but it also helps to have some direct conversations with people.

I think you need to spice things up and try something new/change something in your life. You can't expect different results/change without first changing something in your life. Focus and work on making some changes and things will improve.

Originally Posted by 7wallpaper7

I have been suffering from episodes of extreme unhappiness for around a year and a half. These episodes often happen when I'm alone. During them, I'm overwhelmed with a feeling that I'm completely worthless, I'll fail at life, I'm ugly, stupid, etc. Nothing seems to cheer me up, the future seems like a horrible place, I can't move or distract myself because I'm crying so hard. Then I feel even more worthless because I wonder why I'm depressed when my life isn't bad, I feel melodramatic. My life is average I do averagely well in school, I feel ugly but I know I look average, I think all the averageness just makes it worse, like I have no place, am ridiculously unimportant. I feel like crap. And then, after about an hour I'm fine. I feel nit bit apathetic and still can't concentrate, but otherwise ok. Until the next day. And repeat everyday. I dismiss it when the episodes aren't in progress and when they are i can't do anything. But all the other hours of the day, I'm relatively ok. What should I do?