[LoneWolfie]

In my previous posts I mentioned waiting to see a Pdoc, I have been given the run around. The referral from my GP went to a Pdoc that the GP said was good. A few weeks pasted to come to find out the this wonderful Pdoc feels he can not help me and sent the file to be taken care of by someone else.

Well the crap pretty much hit the fan on Tuesday. The hospital called me, I was home because I was physically and emotionally so tired I could not get out of bed. I was told could see a Pdoc for a depression meds review on December 21st, but the hospital does not offer counselling. I was told about two programs and one other organization.

So I emailed my GP with everything the letter below:

I'm sure that Crystal gave you the message that I got from Dr. H;s receptionist. I waited a week as mentioned by the receptionist and called wherever the referral was sent within the hospital. I was told a sixteen week waiting time which would mean early to mid February. I am struggling to the point that I did not go to work today, I am tired emotionally and physically. The hospital called this morning after phone tag and after 20 minutes of talking about my issues, I did manage to get an appointment with a Dr. P to review my depression medication on December 21st. I was told the hospital does not offer counseling.

I was told I could refer myself to Providence Care for either of the two programs below:


Managing Powerful Emotions Group

Managing Powerful Emotions is a 10-week group offered several times a year for individuals who have difficulty with emotion regulation but who do not need the intensive treatment regimen of the Chrysalis Day Program. It is an educational group that teaches participants to use practical tools to understand their feelings and exercise control over emotional outbursts that create significant difficulties in their lives. Individuals may self-refer themselves to this group.

Keep It Simple Skills Group

Keep It Simple Skills Group is a short-term immediate treatment group for individuals in the community or in hospital. Individuals participate in a series of six groups based on the four core modules of Dialectical Behaviour Therapy, including mindfulness, emotion regulation, interpersonal effectiveness and distress tolerance.
It is a suitable group for individuals struggling with any of the following: impulsiveness, self-harm or self-damaging behaviours, unstable moods and emotions, and relationship difficulties. It may also be an appropriate treatment group for individuals who are unable to attend the Chrysalis Day Program or who are waiting for the Chrysalis Day Program or Managing Powerful Emotions group. Individuals may refer themselves to this group and do not need a referral from a health care professional.

These two programs are for people with Borderline Personality Disorder, have never been diagnosed but do have several criteria for the disorder.

The other organization is Frontenac Community Mental Health, which a referral is needed
except for the 24 hour crisis line.

The last few months have been an emotional roller coaster and right now I holding on with finger tips. I honestly do not know how much more I can take, Dr. H,s saying he can not help me and the Hospital does not offer counseling. I am pretty much at crisis mode now and do not know where to turn.


Will you please send a referral to one of these services, I am willing to wait but I need help.

Providence Care offers:

The Mood Disorders Research and Treatment Service referrals and requests for service or consultation are to be directed to the Intake Coordinator,
Referrals are accepted from family physicians, psychiatrists, and community mental health agencies. When a community mental health worker refers, the referral must be endorsed by the family physician.

Personality Disorders
Referrals are accepted from medical, mental health, and social service professionals. The referral source will be asked to complete a Consultation Form and send all useful collateral information. The Personality Disorders Service offers a full psychiatric assessment as part of referral, and the quality of the assessment report is dependent on the quality of the information provided by community caregivers. The family physician should be aware of involvement in the program.

I went to the Canadian Mental Health chapter here which got me a few phone numbers and was pretty much told go to Emerg to get assessed, that was day two of work missed.

Still on day two and I was checking email before bed expecting to go to work since I missed two days and will now need a doctor's note because I am on day 3.

My GP emailed me back and basically didn't mention sending a new referral, only that I should sign up for the two self referal programs. That just sent me into a complete tailspin, I have been self harming the last two months. I self harmed worse then I ever have before and till be something that will be seen and can not be explained away like oh the cat scratched me. This last blow was to much I called the crisis line in town and two crisis workers came to my house 20 minutes later.

Because I have suicidal thoughts especially about driving off the highway and I work 40 clicks away, it was strongly suggested I do not go to work today. Someone will be calling me today because I have been given an appointment with a psychiatrist that is at this organization 2 times a week. They will be advocating on my behalf because these appointments are for crisis situations. I may only see him a few times to adjust meds but as one of the workers said two days compared to a month is alot better.

Atleast I will get some sort of support, they use Principles of Psychosocial Rehabilitation. You can look it up to see what it is about if you want.

Feeling like I have been run over by a semi several times. I went to bed at 3:30 and got up to call into work at 6am.

Why do you have to scream because you are falling into a black hole before someone hears you?

LoneWolfie

[dusty9838]

I'm very sorry for all the pain you'r efeeling and the helplessness of not being able to get help as immediately as you need it. I too am having to wait until December 20th for my therapy appointment and I honsestly don't know if I can wait that long myself. I am feeling so desperate dealing with my depression and I missed 3 or 4 days of work week before last and when I did go to work I was just zoned out and almost not functional...

Anyway I think it is important to use whatever tools you have at hand right now and and try some of that group therapy... at least when you do that you'll be able to sit and talk and let others hear your problems and I'm sure there will be others in that group that will be able to relate to your feelings. Honestly I wish there were some group therapy like that going on around here because I'd already be signed up myself.

I wish you the best and keep holding on. Take it day by day and you WILL make it through this horrible time.

[likewater]

Lonewolfie, i know what it's like to have those feelings while driving to work. I went a about a year where i wanted to crash my car on way to work. What saved me is now a friend needs a ride and i don't get those feelings with someone else in the car. I'm so sorry you are going through all this. It is so hard to wait for help. I dont know how it is in Canada but in states there are different resources .i waited 9 mos for low cost counseling and then found out from a friend there were other options. Just call and ask as many people as ypu can and maybe you can get something sooner. Sending you positive vibes.