[Lexicon78]

Well, to put it simply, I'm really upset right now. I'm angry, disgusted, depressed, frustrated...you name it and I'm probably it! I was very anxious to get back online today, but really wish I hadn't now. I wish I could please people but I can't. I can only do what is right for me and if people don't like how I put things, they can go straight to...well you know.

I'm doing the best I can. I'm trying my best but my best doesn't seem good enough for anybody. I'm struggling to stay afloat. I may be overreacting but I don't care. People complain about me and it really hurts my feelings just because I don't do something good enough. The world complains about me...my step-mother complained to my dad about me. She said she didn't have enough time with him because I was always with him. Well, I love my dad...I have to be with people I love! I have needs just like anyone else.

Ok, I'm going all over the place. I can't keep my thoughts straight right now. Not like any part of me is "straight" at all, though.

((((((((((((((((Lex))))))))))))))

Caroline

Lex, you've been through hell with losing so many people in the past year. I think you're holding on to and needing your Dad is understandable given the circumstances.
If little miss step mother can't accept that then she's just an uncompassionate, selfish, um... person.
You're doing fine. Keep taking strides, focus on the present and pat yourself on the back for getting yourself through another day.
Don't let anyone else have you undermine your own accomplishments and don't take for granted the little things that you are doing right because those little things eventually turn into bigger things and soon enough your taking large strides instead of baby steps.
Give yourself lots of hugs, Lex. You deserve them.
((((((((((((Lex)))))))))))))))