[findingmy_self95]

My dad confronted me about my behaviour and asked if I was going through somehitng and I didnt even think I was behaving differently. But I am dealing with copious amounts of stress and the fact that my dad wants me to get a job puts more stress on me......

Im tired of cutting and im tired of being depressed..... i just need to talk to Tracy but shes out until the 8th so im ****ed....... Why did I **** up my last 2 appt...... I really need a professional to talk to right now..... not a friend, not family.... a proffesional that coukld admit me to the hospital....... because im too scared to go ask for help....i need someone to do it for me......

i heard my dad talking to my sister about me and how he doesnt know what to do with me or what he would do if i did anyhting.... i really think i need to be admitted.....

im always shaking, im cutting all the time, and im completely hopeless and i dont know why? like i dont have a real reason to feel like this
im actually scaring myself
i dont know waht to do

how do i start to help myself? i dont like where im headed

[danii24]

to help yourself the first thing is to admit yourself to hospital. its obv needed if people are noticing your acting oldly then its a deffinant that u are.

You seem to know yourself the real answer to your question about helping yourself. take that step because if you dont help yourself no1 else will help you. i no you feel you need to be forced or for some1 to admit you to hospital but you can ask for help be brave.

Your father sounds really concerned and worried about you now. maybe if you show him that post maybe he'll ring the doc for you to get you admitted

[kaliope]

definately if you are able to admit that you need to go to the hospital you need to go. you dont need a professional to admit you. you can go voluntarily and the nice thing about that is that yu can leave when you want as well. if the hospital doesnt allow self admission than you can go thru your local emergency room. let your dad know. he sounds worried, let him know there is something to worry about and he will get you the help you need. on the basis of cutting alone is reason for admission. youre reaching out for help here, reach out where it really counts. youre really brave. take care of yourself.

[findingmy_self95]

i need to finishschool at least. hopeully ill make it until friday. well see how things are then...

[TerryL]

If you can't get to the hospital can you call a crisis helpline? That might help you let out some of your pain and stress. Please take care.

[danii24]

yea the helplines are good when you need to tlk to someone straight away. i have used them myself and felt a bit calmer after it

[LostinaCrowd]

I know how you feel about asking for help, the fears, the thought of just voicing it is so daunting.
If you are unable to do any of the suggestions above try doing what I do when Im scared of myself and cant voice how Im feeling to those close to me.
Write it out in a note or email or even send a copy of your msg here to your dad. He sounds like he really cares but doesnt know how to reach you or help you without you rejecting it. This way you dont have to see his reaction when he reads but can reach out to him indirectly. He will help you if you try it. Im a parent, I know he will do all he can if you give him a chance.
I hope you find an answer soon, its a tough journey we are all on but you are not alone.