[Zen888]

Hi Everyone

I am beyond sad.....I am just numb and in shock now.

My brother wants distance from me and he says that he doesnt miss me. He said I have borderline persoanlity disorder. He is my only living family member (both parents are dead).

I feel so alone. I feel angry that he doesnt care for me anymore.

I give up....I am tired of trying to ask for forgiveness for being bipolar. I am not suicidal I just am very very sad and feel so isolated. Like im looking at everyone that has a family but me.

I dont know what to do. I only have one friend. I feel so sad and alone.

Zen888

[reddevil]

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That was horrible for your brother to say that to you, also how does he know if you have borderline or not?

You never need forgiveness for being ill.

[Zen888]

Thank-you!

He is an alcohol and drug therapist. But since we are from the same family (same parents) why do I have disorder(s) and he has none!

Were does he get off name calling and cutting me down!!

[reddevil]

Originally Posted by Zen888

Thank-you!

He is an alcohol and drug therapist. But since we are from the same family (same parents) why do I have disorder(s) and he has none!

Were does he get off name calling and cutting me down!!

An alcohol and drug therapist isn't a Pdoc, so he's not qualified to judge.

And I don't know Zen, but he's not very nice for doing it.

[Fuzzybear]

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((((((zen)))))))))))))))
It can be so hard with familys. So very hard when there is only 2 left.
I am sorry he said that to you .
If you can maybe let it slide a few days/ Sometimes ppl say things they do not mean out of anger. Could be he was feeling bad about himself.
You are not to blame for having being bipolar.Nor do you need to ask forgivness. It make you who you are........

Please know that you matter....and we care here at pc
muffy

[gimmeice]

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I am sorry that your brother is treating you that way, I agree with the others you do not need to apologize for having bipolar just as a diabetic doesn't have to apologize for his illness. I am sending you many hugs.

[silver_moon]

(((((((( zen ))))))))))))
go and give that little yorkie of yours a huge hug. She has a wonderful mum.
Wish I could be there for you.

[Zen888]

I could really use some more input into my situation with my brother. I wake up with anxiety attacks over it and have nightmares. He has had over a year apart from me and still he says he needs his space away from me. And that he doesnt miss me as much as i miss him. And going back to college seems lonely because I only have a few friends there not close friends that I can really talk to if you know what I mean.

He said I have borderline personality disorder because of my push pull behaviours. But he does the same thing.....he wanted to celebrate my birthday and christmas with me but yet he still wants his distance from me. I get so confused. Does he hate me or what?

[mlpHolmes]

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I am so sorry you brother's behavior is causing you so much unhappiness. I hope he realizes before it's to late, just how magnificient & special you really are!

No other person has ever been born-nor will there ever be one-who is just like you! You are unique!!
I've experienced your kindness, & warm personality, all of your PC friends have!!!

[madisgram]

zen , i don't understand your borther's behavior towards you. no loved one deserves to be treated that way-meaning how he treated you. if it were me i'd return to school and strive to make a life for myself in spite of his absence.
i did it, i'm bipolar with a very dysfunctional family, and in order to get/stay healthy myself i distanced myself from those of my family who hurt me. today i have a huge batch of friends who love me for who i am. they live all over the US. they have remained my friends even when i've moved away from them. my familly-siblings-are back in the picture but i always protect myself from them. when i do visit them if need be i just get in the car and leave-i live over 8 hours from them so it's a long ride home but definitely worth it.
this is what my T told me a long time ago....how do you stay healthy in an unhealthy relationship (family)?
the answer-distance
perhaps one day your brother will realize what he has missed out on...a loving sister. perhaps not, but in the meantime you are forging ahead with a healthy life for yourself.

[scooterb]

For whatever reason I find that when it comes to specialized support needs, family can be the worst choice. I don't try to discuss my mental illness or alcoholism with my family, even though one of my sisters is a therapist. Perhaps it's because they can't get distance from the personal stuff to have clarity and objectivity. And in my case, I am the only alcoholic/dual diagnosed person in my immediate family, so they don't have the basic understanding of the disease and my challenges. That's why I stopped expecting them to treat me a certain way. There is a 12 step saying: Expectations are resentments waiting to happen. I have lots of friends and "family" in the AA program and in mental health support groups who I can run stuff past and they get it and don't think I just fell out of a tree on my head. I also suffer from Migraines and find that no one - even doctors - have much sympathy for me unless they are a fellow sufferer. So, please don't give up! Look around your community and find people with similar interests and before you know it you'll be screening your phone calls because life is so full. And reach out to some one else who is hurting more than you and share your experiences, strength, and hope.