Help.

I'm feeling so disgusting.

My boyfriend was trying to comfort me as I was crying but I kept pushing him away. Telling him to go away. I hate myself. All I want is to feel normal but I can't. I keep switching off and then he says "What's wrong, what's wrong" and I say "nothing" He gets angry and upset.
I can't stop hurting him! I feel like such a nasty person. A screw up, He tries to comfort me, to love me, and I tell him to go away.

What sort of screwed up person am I?? I can't function.

Hey Kimmm,

If you need to talk we are all here to for you!!

I just don't know what to do anymore, one second I can be up and then the next minute I'm so low I cannot see a way out.

I feel sick to death of myself. I'm such a selfish horrible screw up!! I just want this all to end, what is the point of me

Hey Kimmm,

The point of you is that you are a very nice, intelligent person

You know this black hole is wanting to suck you in..... don't let it do that!!!

Can you call someone? Call The Samaritians? Breathing Space? Can you call your GP/Psych tomorrow?

I don't trust GP's or psychiatrists. They messed my mum up. I just wanna curl up into a ball.

Just in case anyone was wondering, I phoned the Samaritans hotline last night and it really really helped. Please any British people who have a problem. Phone them, they are fantastic

Is there anything like The Samaritans in the US? I'm glad they helped you Kimmm...