Whiney Emo Post

Hey everyone, it's been so long since I have been here.

I took a leave of absence from college for a year to try to help my depression.

No one understands how debilitating depression can be, there are even posts on here saying that you shouldn't tell your employer about your depression.

everyone hates depressed people.

I don't even know w hat I am saying.

My future feels hopeless, and no one can understand that feeling. They will just say GET OVER IT!

I hate people...

*whimper*

Bless your heart -- I know how those "voices" in your head can keep telling you that it's hopeless. But it's NOT.

Why not try a psychologist? Get some therapy, and see what it causing all these horrible feelings? I've been depressed since I was a child, and have been in and out of therapy for years. I've been taking an antidepressant for many years as I'm clinically depressed. It has helped me immensely -- as did therapy.

You aren't alone -- there are MANY of us 'out here' that suffer from depression too. Just taking that FIRST STEP to getting help can seem like climbing a mountain -- but it's important and you'll feel better about yourself once you make that call for an appointment.

Best of luck, and please keep us informed on how you're doing. God bless. Hugs, Lee

Hello, SophiaG. You are in my thoughts.

SophiaG! So good to hear from you!

No question, depression is debilitating. You may describe this as a "whiny" post, but there's truth behind it.
Regardless of how you feel, do you think the leave helped? Do you believe, even if still depressed, you are more practically functional now? (Please don't feel pressed to answer.)

May good things appear for you.

*smiles* It's been a while since i've been here hasn't it.

You're a kind person.

I'm not sure if it helped.

I hope it did. :/

(((((((((((( SophiaG ))))))))))))

((SophiaG)) How are you today? I can relate to the frustration of depression slowing down your progress with your degree... I've put my final paper for my master's degree on hold for about a year and a half, because I haven't had the energy or motivation to work on it. I've just started working on it again, but now I feel like my mood is crashing. Grrrr.... Anyway, just know that you are not alone with this struggle. Take good care of you.
peace,
Garden Gal

It does suck. Depression is a self defeating illness. (I call it cancer of the soul). People tell us to just snap outta it, suck it up, get over it, move on, or just be happy. I want to SCREAM when ppl say that **** - shake them! They really don't get it and YA KNOW WHAT???? - GOOD FOR THEM! Thank god they don't have to suffer too. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I don't know if I can help but just knowing someone does get it might make you feel less alone. Tiny consolation I know.

"I hate people... " Try to say to yourself when you think/feel that, "They're only trying to help." I'm practicing that myself and it's helping me take the edge off the anger a little (just a little lol)

As for time off... I NEED to do something / anything to feel validated - to keep going. Plus being busy keeps me temporarily distracted - I HAVE to go to work. Sure there's moments where I burst into tears (I just go into the bathrm til it passes) and there's times where I just can't focus (so I pinch myself or snap my wrist with a rubber band when my mind wanders to get me back on track).Otherwise I would curl up in a ball, cry all day AND all night and die. I agree about not telling employers about the depression. It's hard to hide it sometimes - but now everyone thinks I have really bad allergies. lol red puffy eyes explained...

See we're all here together just hanging on. Not alone.

Thank you