[bbray]

I am not really sure how this is supposed to work, but here goes. I have been feeling severely depressed for almost a year now, and it just keeps getting worse there are days when i don't have the strength to get out of my bed or simply open my mouth to talk i used to be an overactive person but not any more there is this constant feeling of emptyness that can even be felt as physical pain, when i cant bare it any more i cut myself as form of distraction, i have tried to over dose twice already, and there is still nothing in my life that is worth waking up on a morning i feel as if my existence is basically to suffer. i am not just sitting back and letting it happen i am fighting and trying to do things that would get me out of it i have been to 6 different psychologist but no real progress has been made, i tried to start an exercise program but it takes to much out of me just to do that. my world is crumbling around me and everything in my life is being affected the life i had i dont have it any more and it just feels like there is no more hope no reason to go on... I wish i did not have to wake up tomorrow.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, BBray!

Originally Posted by bbray

Tired, depressed misquotes the mood
the effects of a month to a soul with no food
Its empty, i'm empty, nothing remains,
Maybe hope, maybe want, Mostly just pain.

Originally Posted by bbray

i have been to 6 different psychologist but no real progress has been made...

Discouraging. You've sought help but remain severely depressed. Apart from psychologists, have you had a full medical workup?

[bbray]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hello & Welcome, BBray!


Discouraging. You've sought help but remain severely depressed. Apart from psychologists, have you had a full medical workup?

no i havent been able to... i am trying to work on that now and see if i could prob get some meds.. its a lot harder in my country to locate persons that specializes in these areas.

[Butterflies Are Free]

Welcome - I am glad you posted and hope you find lots of support here! I am thinking about you!

[kendurah218]

I know it doesnt feel like it at all but everything WILL be okay. But you have to believe that. I've been where you are and the only thing that kept me going was the belief things were going to get better. Also, medication. There is a right dosage and a right medication for almost everyone but sometimes it can take a long time to find that right combination. Luvox has been my savior. You need to find something that works for you and eventually (yes it may take awhile) it WILL get better. Hang in there and please email me if you wish.