vulnerable and alone

My GP doesn't think I'm acutely depressed right now. My diagnosis is Recurrent Depression. Does that mean that I'm not in the midst of a Major episode right now, but could be experiencing chronic symptoms? [As I have done all my life.] That's my interpretation anyway.

I sure as heck don't feel good today.

I feel really vulnerable today.

After all the uncertainty of the past year, I know now that I am keeping my job, but now most of the excitement and drama of the branch closures has mostly passed, I feel empty and lost. I feel a loss, but I'm not sure what of.

I just felt so low and miserable most of the time at work this afternoon.

I feel tearful, but my mind is swirling too fast to cry.

I feel really 'Borderline' today, and I don't like it.

I just need to feel less alone, please.

Hi sorrel, sorry things aren't so good for you right now - do you see a T?

Thank you.

Yes, I saw her this morning, and it stirred up feelings I'd not quite allowed myself to feel over the weekend, alone.

I always struggle for the 2-3 days after seeing T, then I seem to be able to put the lid on things again....until the next time.

Take care - hope the feelings start to settle

Thank you.

I see her again on Wednesday. I hope I'll have myself more in hand by then.

It didn't help that I was meant to have an important meeting with my manager today, and she basically 'forgot'. Not something someone with a tendency to abandonment depressions wants to experience. I'm also in PMS phase. *sigh*

I guess there was probably a very logical reason why your manager "forgot", but I know for me that my mind would create all sorts of scenarios. Wdnesday is only a day away now, hope you have a good session.

I did, thank you.

I feel out of sorts today. Like my insides are outside, and I feel so exposed. I just don't.. feel right. It's like my mind doesn't belong in my body?