Regaining hope?

I'm managing two disabilities (fibromyalgia & migraines/seizures), trying to come to terms with my depression, searching for a job to avoid eviction, and caring for an aging parent. Finally I secure a position. I requested a Letter of Hire from my new employer to use to apply for a loan, intent on paying the back rent but the new employer refuses to give me one, asking ...what is it for? ...why do I need that? I gave no reply. For the rest of this afternoon/evening my hope sank. I feel lost, I have no incentive. Can anyone offer words of advice, encouragement, how to regain my hope?

you have done very well in finding a job and solving one problem, regarding fibromyalgia and migrane i am sure ur on medications. regarding depression have u seen a doctor yet? or are u on any medications?. solve one thing at a time, try to find out from local banks if you can get a loan, or talk to close family and friends. talking to other people makes u feel slightly better and also they might come up with some ideas to solve your problems.
All the best, we are with u in ur times of hardship

Your landing a job in this economy is a huge accomplishment. Congratulations. I was wondering why you hesitated with your employer? Was it out of embarassment? Did he really refuse or are you reading into his asking. You don't have to tell him your entire situation--just enough to let him know the urgency and legitimacy of your request.

A huge heartfelt thanks for you replies, vaarier & St406. Knowing there are people here at PsychCentral who are supportive, experienced, & honest with advice gets me through some really difficult moments. I have no support system... yet.

Yes to the meds for fibromyalgia & migraines/seizures. I have yet to see a doctor for the depression. Took 2 months to find one that accepted my healthcare ins. But success came & my first appt is in 2 days. I don't know what to expect from this initial session, but I am grateful to have a chance to talk to someone about how dark I feel. This overwhelming sadness is awful! I am finding it more & more difficult to "fake (being) fine" when I am around others.

Employer outright refused to write the letter until I explained my situation. I did & it made me feel worse, I could have choked having to admit to essentially a stranger that I have disabilities. Regardless, employer wrote it, faxed it, & I have a copy. The amount of hours I work I think may be insufficient for payback. Tomorrow morning is my court hearing. I will soon find out.

Let me say thanks again, for your replies really mean a lot to me.