[sunangel803]

This is my weekend off, and I had really been looking forward to it. I woke up in a good mood this morning. As I was eating breakfast this morning, I turned on the news. I happened to catch a segment on various things going on in the area this weekend. It was all about haunted houses, pumpkin patches, Halloween parties, and other things like festivals and celebrations, etc. I was thinking about how fun it would be to go to one of those things. Or anything for that matter.

But I don't want to go by myself. That's when I started feeling sad.

To make a long story short, my husband is out of the country at this time. He's been gone for 4 months and it's unknown how much longer he's going to be gone (like I said, long story). I have two friends that I'm close to, but one lives about three hours away and the other one just had a baby this week, so she's understandably busy with her baby and family stuff. I have other friends, but I'm not that close to them. It's not the kind of friendship, where one person randomly calls the other on a Saturday morning and says, "hey, let's hang out." (Does that make sense?)

Anyway, my mood went downhill pretty quickly after watching that segment on the news. I already feel stressed out about other issues in my life, so it doesn't take much to bring my mood down lately. So I've felt down most of the day.

I texted my friend that just had the baby to see how her and her son are doing, but I didn't want to bother her because I know she's busy and I tried calling my friend that lives three hours away, but she was driving somewhere and understandably doesn't like to talk on the phone and drive at the same time. I would like to talk to somebody but I'm running into the same issues as mentioned above, plus I feel like I always have to be the "strong one" for everybody else. I have a hard time talking about my feelings. I always have, which is probably why I'm anxious/depressed in the first place.

I don't know, I guess the point of this post was just to vent since I don't have anyone around me to talk to. I feel lonely a lot and there's times where it feels like the loneliness is so overwhelming, where it would make me so happy to hear a friendly voice, get a hug from someone who cares, to do something fun with a friend. I try not to rely on others to make me happy, but it's nice to be around someone who cares, you know?

Thanks for reading/listening.

((((((sunangel803))))))

Sending you hugs and positive vibes, sunangel803. You are not alone here. I cannot relate to your desire for wanting to be with friends (schizoid here), but I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Two ideas popped into my mind while reading your post, just wanted to run them by you...

-Perhaps you might benefit from trying to find other friends to hang out with? I imagine they can be found in many places, such as exercise classes, clubs, even bars (if that's your kind of thing). And, of course, there is always Psychcentral and the supportive people here.

-It might be helpful to try engaging in activities on your own...so you can slowly see that you don't need to be with someone else to have fun. Personally, I have the most fun by myself! I guess everyone is different though, right? Maybe start out with small activities, and then you might soon be going to those parties and celebrations, having fun on your own.

I guess for most people, it's about balance. Enjoying time with others, while also doing things alone.

[LyingSweetie]

I'm lonely too I so wanted to go to the haunted house and the clue games and the movie screenings but no one to go with. I'll probably end up watching scary movies at home by myself late at night

[alwaysrejoice]

I know exactly what you mean about being excited for a weekend off then having nothing to do. Are you sure you can't call one of those friends you said you wouldn't normally call? I got brave once and went to a craft class all by myself and had fun.

[beautiful_breakdown]

No advice to offer, because I'm feeling the same. I've had an empty house all weekend. H decided to take the kids to a friends place for the weekend. Of course he kept asking me to go but I haven't seen these people in years and felt nervous about going. So here I am, empty house. I should love it right? Baby free time to do what I want right? It hasn't worked out that way. I just wandered around the house looking at all the things I could be doing, not feeling like doing them and thinking how good it would be to have a friend.

Wouldn't it be nice if you could just look out the window and know if the person walking by is lonely too... then maybe...

The Cure for Loneliness
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/...ure-loneliness