[stephiifaye92]

So Im depressed about just about everything but I focus on it so much that its all just blurred into one big reason for depression...which I cant quite get my finger on tonight.
But Im sitting here realizing I have no one.

My boyfriend and I have been having problems lately. And it really sucks because we both get the same way about **** and just end up depressing eachother more. And I work now and I get no time at home to really spend with him. Then the time I do get, something like tonight happens.

My friend from 2nd grade was my best friend til around a few months ago, she turned to her girlfriend for everything, but they dont see theyre seriously bringing eachother down. Id get into it but its this useless babble that is totally off topic. Anyway, any time I try to talk to this friend, its useless because her IQ and common sense is at about a 2 even though I love her to death, shes just not good with that stuff

Then my other friends from school have completely changed on me and I never see them anymore and theyre so ****ing fake now like the whole world around me I cant stand to even try to make plans with them,

Anyways. I feel like curling up into a little ball and disappearing.
Or chopping all my hair off and become a new person.
And the me that isnt right now wouldnt like the outcome of either of those.
Neither would my boyfriend. haha.
[had to get some humor in there]

[maynardssillygirl]

Originally Posted by stephiifaye92

So Im depressed about just about everything but I focus on it so much that its all just blurred into one big reason for depression...which I cant quite get my finger on tonight.
But Im sitting here realizing I have no one.

My boyfriend and I have been having problems lately. And it really sucks because we both get the same way about **** and just end up depressing eachother more. And I work now and I get no time at home to really spend with him. Then the time I do get, something like tonight happens.

My friend from 2nd grade was my best friend til around a few months ago, she turned to her girlfriend for everything, but they dont see theyre seriously bringing eachother down. Id get into it but its this useless babble that is totally off topic. Anyway, any time I try to talk to this friend, its useless because her IQ and common sense is at about a 2 even though I love her to death, shes just not good with that stuff

Then my other friends from school have completely changed on me and I never see them anymore and theyre so ****ing fake now like the whole world around me I cant stand to even try to make plans with them,

Anyways. I feel like curling up into a little ball and disappearing.
Or chopping all my hair off and become a new person.
And the me that isnt right now wouldnt like the outcome of either of those.
Neither would my boyfriend. haha.
[had to get some humor in there]

I just joined this site and I would like to say you aren't alone. You do have the people in this forum of whom can relate to you. I don't want you to disappear because you are someone who understands what it's like to be stuck in a rut. The only comfort I can offer is that moods change with the wind. You can feel really bad one minute but then something can happen just a few minutes later to change it all. Don't try to fight the way you feel, just relax and know it will pass.

I find that the biggest enemy really is inactivity. If you can push, prod, cajole yourself to do something, anything constructive during a depression, sometimes a little thing you start to do every day can lead you out of it. How healthy are you, are you eating right? Start taking a walk WHEN you feel poorly; leave the ipod home, leave everything distracting alone and just walk with your thoughts. Distractions like the computer, texting, etc. are awful for working on yourself. Just be with you, without any "filters."

It can also be something creative-a journal, a drawing, a poem, a collage, a song-or it can be something useful in other ways-cleaning, reorganizing, helping a neighbor. They do say, if you can't help yourself, help someone else. Helping a friend in even a small way may bring you some measure of relief from your own thoughts which are imprisoning you. It will get you thinking about others and out of your own head, even if it may seem counter-intuitive to focus on someone else's problem or needs. Ultimately, you will feel good about your generosity and those good feelings may jumpstart positive feelings about your own situation. It's easy for us to tell you to "lose the bf" but if you find that he is bringing you down, perhaps a break from him might do you good. Despite the societal norm, it is often good to be alone with yourself from time to time. Good luck.