Stuck

I feel stuck.

My job is a toxic place for me right now....it has triggered my depression, and it has caused me to start SIing way more than I used to. Not only have things been bad, but the only person that I trust and can talk to at work got a new job and has put in her 3 week notice. I am happy for her as she isn't happy with her current job and will be making more money at her new job, but at the same time I am scared. I can't trust or talk to anyone else, for reasons I am not going to get into (very long story). The only person I feel comfortable talking to is leaving. For a while, I was actively looking and applying for jobs, but I can't do it anymore. I have stopped caring and have NO motivation or energy. I know I can't stay at my current job, but at the same time, I am extremely nervous at the thought of starting a new job while in this depressed state. My current job is making me depressed, so much so that I am unable to look for or even think about getting another job. I feel stuck.

I am sorry you are in such an unfortunate situation. It must be tough. You really are stuck as long as you stay in your current mindset. From here I see you have two choices. Stay at your current job, throw yourself into your work, isolated and fall deeper into depression or dig deep into yourself, telling yourself you are not going to let depression rule your life and build up enough motivation to get out there and find another job that will be more rewarding. I know you feel stuck, but the only way to get unstuck, like getting a car out of the mud, is to get out and start pushing.

Do you have a T? Antidepressants? Maybe its time to get on them or readjust the dosage to get through this period of your life.

I know this is not the answer you are looking for, I do hope you get to feeling better. Hugs to you