[I'mNotReal]

I need more support than friends and family can give me. I wonder why they aren’t more supportive. I wish I was someone important for them but I make no difference in their lives.

Does it matter if I live or die?

[Puddle_Duck]

So sorry INR. I wish I had the answers and knew why. I think it does matter whether you live or die. I think there is more than the crappy hand life deals out sometimes. I just joined yesterday and I am by no means *any* kind of expert on how to deal with this....I am just starting to try to figure it out myself. But I am here. I hope that others here today can give you the advice you need. I can at least give my words and hope that it helps some.

[I'mNotReal]

Thank you.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, I'mNotReal!

Originally Posted by I'mNotReal

Does it matter if I live or die?

I believe it does matter, yet I realize I cannot "make" you believe. Time and experience may grant you a more fulfilling perspective on life.

Originally Posted by I'mNotReal

I need more support than friends and family can give me.

This is important. You should trust your assessment. Are you in a position to enlist a counselor or doctor to help you get a hold on your situation?

Originally Posted by I'mNotReal

I wonder why they aren’t more supportive.

It's possible they have no personal experience of your kind of depression. They may have problems or defects of their own that prevent them from being empathetic toward you. Unfortunately, many people with clinical depression cannot depend on their family or friends for the right kind of support.

Please keep posting.

It does matter you live because I wouldn't be happy if you wasn't here. Your friends and family need you. They love you.