[DelusionsDaily]

Ok this might seem a bit strange but I feel totally lost as to who I am. I have been dealing with depression far longer than I have been getting treated for it along with the anxiety. Now that I have somewhat handle on the depression and anxiety I feel lost as to who I am...kinda like I lost my identity. I never realized it before but I think I used to let depression define me and now that it is being managed I feel lost. I dont even know where to start...its all so confusing. Am I making sense?? I am taking this issue to T with me tomorrow but wondered if anyone else has felt or experienced this...how did you get through it??

I can relate...am going through it right now, actually. I used to define myself largely by my Bipolar and OCD. Now that it is being managed relatively well, I don't know how to move on. Who am I? I'm not sure. Sort of makes life feel pointless, but I try to look on the bright side and keep myself busy.

Sending you lots of hugs and positive energy!

[Rohag]

Hello, MELISSSAD81!

Originally Posted by MELISSSAD81

Am I making sense?

Yes. I do not believe I have ever experienced the kind of severe loss of identity you describe, but I have experienced a loss of identity in connection with depression and its effects.

Originally Posted by MELISSSAD81

how did you get through it?

I'm still in the looooong process of getting through it. Over time I've noticed my wandering mind and sporadic energies have taken me in circles that are not totally detached from the historical me. I'm a shadow of my former self, but the former self is still discernible if dim.

Do you have any traditions or rituals or mementos that remind you of who you are beyond the depression?

EDIT: How did things go with T?

[DelusionsDaily]

My T and I started out talking about some stuff from previous sessions. Then I told her about having let depression define everything and that I feel lost as to how to figure out who I am without that definition there. We started out with my strengths. She rattled 10 right off the top and I barely eeked one out. My homework is to find and take free personality and interest tests(not career related) and see what happens. I will print the results and take them in when I see her in 2 weeks and we will discuss them. I am anxious to see what the results are. Well that is about all for now...