Sliding

Sliding down. Things were going okay, looking up, but then last night I lost a big filling in one of my molars. So emergency trip to the dentist this morning. And no money.

So now hubby blames me for "spending all our money" and is mad at me. It's because I had to buy pants and shirts for my new job, I only bought two pair of pants and two shirts, I don't think that's unreasonable. But we also had to buy a second carseat, we promised to supply the babysitter with one, since she's going to watch the kid/s all day. That way she's not stuck in the house all day. That's it, that's all I bought. And now the dentist this morning.

I had to cancel my t appt this morning, because of the dentist.

I'm feeling really low today. I'm meeting with my new supervisor tonight for my first client service.

I feel like everything that's been going on lately is finally catching up with me. I think under normal circumstances this would be the time I'd check myself in. But of course that's not an option now.

Maybe starting to work will make me feel better. Dunno.

Animals are often the best therapists. Thinking of you...

I find that keeping busy with work or school can help me a bit, I hope that you too can find helpful distraction in work. Try not to let your husband get to you, he's probably just stressed about money- but your spending sounds perfectly reasonable. Best wishes, and hang in there

Hi there.

Money problems can really drag you down. Maybe it's hard, but try to let money affect your less if you can. Your life and relationship will get better because of it.

I know this is really hard, because money is so important. Maybe have a little discussion with your partner about the more important things in life. I know this helped a bit for me when I was short on money for months.

Oh, gosh. Ask him to please give you a break. You are going to be okay.
Rohag is right ... animals are the best therapists. Enjoy every second you have with them! Give them lots of love in return.
*hugs galore*
Roadrunner

thank you all!

hubby did calm down. luckily. and i enjoyed meeting my first doggie client. i think i'm going to really like this job.

but i still feel so depressed. i haven't felt like this since may. and my t didn't call me back to reschedule. she's probably mad at me for cancelling this morning.

i just want to crawl into bed and stay there. for a loooong time.

there have been several "S" triggers the last couple of days. it makes me feel even worse.

i'm once again starting to wonder if that whole "fighting for life" thing is really worth it.

the pain is so strong tonight. so strong.

try to get a good night's sleep, things may look a little better in the morning

well, i made it through another day. i guess that's an accomplishment, the way i feel right now. i do like my new job though. i only have two dogs to take care of right now, so not much going on so far, but i'm sure they want to see how i do before giving me more.

i'm so worried about christmas, for the kids i mean. i just don't think we'll have money for presents in time for christmas. it's really stressing me out. i don't even feel like putting the tree up, and when i see the pretty christmas lights outside it just makes me cry. when you have kids, that's all it's about on christmas day, watching them tearing into their presents, the excitement, the happiness. and this year that's just not going to happen.

i feel like i failed my family, kids, husband, pets.

i don't know if i can go on like this.

Well, we're free. DHS closed their case on us this morning. What a waste of time and money that was.

I still feel so low I can't even celebrate the end of this. I'm just tired.