[osamanda15]

I really don't. i posted yesterday and it helped.
but today is worse, i'm feeling a lot worse. so hopeless.

i can't make anyone happy. i just, give up. i don't have the will to try and fight through this anymore, i don't want to be happy. i just don't care. and i feel like no one else does. i just want to sleep. i just..can't do it anymore.

(((((osamanda15)))))

I'm sorry you are feeling so low. I think that, by taking the time to post, there is a part of you that DOES want to be happy, no matter how small it may seem! And I think that's a fantastic sign.

I have been where you are right now...so I know that posting cliche things like "it's darkest just before the dawn" will not help! But I can tell you from experience that things WILL get better. I can't tell you when it will get better, because it differs from person to person. But this state of mind you are in, doesn't last forever (although it may seem like it).

Hang in there, and keep posting when you need to!

[roads]

Who were you trying to make happy, the bf who doesn't treat you very well? You say you give up. If you're giving up trying to make him happy, that's an excellent move.

Melissa.recovering gives great advice. Give yourself time.

Let this guy move on, talk with a professional to get help with your depression, meet lots of guys & one day someone super cool & mature enough to be a good friend as well will show up.

Get a little extra sleep. Can't hurt. Come back here. We want to know what's up. We're getting rather fond of you--such passion for life!