[crazycow6019]

So, I had this really bad nightmare last night. Scared me so bad. It's not every night that you dream about dying.
The voices today they made me think about how peasfull dying would be. Like what they were saying sounded kind of nice. I know I wouldn't try it. I have 3 kids to live for (my sisters kids) Caleb 8, Layla 4 and Connor 5 months. Oh, Connor was born on my birthday July 14th I have those three kids to live for. Yes, I really am the only person that takes care of Connor. I took care of the other 2 kids for 9 months. But then again, laying in a pitch black room with no sound, close your eyes, clear your mind and let go. Sounds nice to me. But like I said I can't. I some how gotta stay strong.

[depressedalaskan]

Why me????? Not here-why us????? Don't know, I guess we are picked out some how. I see you have a lot to live for, think of how much they would miss you. Bad dreams or good dreams they are just that a dream. I used to not dream much but I sure do now that I am on meds. My dreams are so weird. With people in them that I do not even know. Yes I dream of dying too but not much. My fear is how much I think of dying when I am awake. Stay strong for those around, happy holidays, thanks for posting.