Fear

Hey...
I dont know where to post this really so I thought i'd just post it here.
Lately I've been very paranoid and afraid about what people think of me and are saying of me, it comes to the extent where I am almost having a panic attack whenever something triggers this, even if I have the slightest hunch that someone is mad at me I basicly freak out, its not as much with people I dont know, but its worse with my closer friends, I can't help but be afraid when I see someone talking to someone and looking at me at the same time, I really hate it that I do this but I wish I could do something about it.

Jarebear, a lot of difficult things have happened to you in the past few months. Has your living situation changed? Did you go back?

I am living with a new host family now, after my old one actually kicked me out....but atleast i dont have to deal with them anymore, its better here, but im still horribly miserable, its not the family though, its just because of all the things that have happened that im just so tired of everything, I just want to give up allready....

I am the same way but instead of being afraid I feel guilty and really sad, like if one of my teachers tells me to stop talking at school, even if I'm not in trouble and they stent actually angry with me, just telling me to be quiet, I just suddenly find myself fighting back tears and on the brink of a breakdown, and I just want to apologize and cry my eyes out, it's a horrible feeling and it makes be feel bad about myself.