Need to get my self together somehow

I have suffered from depression for so long.
I want to pull myself together but it seems so impossible @ times.
I do things that I think make it worse then better although at the time it feels so good. (If that makes sense?)
I am on meds but as most people will agree it doesn't lift us out of the depression by any stretch of the imagination.
I am in therapy too.
Just seems so hard to be happy and feel any type of joy.
It is draining on me.

Depression often pulls down this dark cloud where we cannot see anything but darkness. So we can't see which way we're going or even if it's up or down, left or right. We are left standing still. I think that the meds help sometimes but it isn't what pulls us out of it.

Therapy helps some, meds help some, but it's always up to us to trudge through that big dark cloud. It's no easy task, either.

I do a lot of things to myself that are often bad for me, although they feel very good, so yes you are making sense.

When that black cloud is near us it is so hard to find the joy and happiness that life sometimes has to offer. I have been fortunate enough to go without the black cloud from time to time.

Hang in there.

i'm a great one for doing something that i know i shouldn't and then really get depressed......it is an ongoing struggle to try and reclaim our souls. xoxoxo pat

So hard to not screw up when you feel so crappy.
Seems like I screw up almost all the time.

Try to look at the dark cloud as a GIFT, another opportunity to HEAL the YOU that is so badly WOUNDED from with in.... do not force it, just let what needs to be happen, you know what you can and cannot do - you be the judge here.... no one else.

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

>>>>>>> We are here for YOU.................... Forever & Always.

LoVe,
Rhapsody

Totally understand and been there too!!! When the darkness descends, I want to stay in bed and do nothing or think of nothing.

I know that's when I should be getting out and exercising or something, but sometimes it feels that a huge magnet is keeping me in bed and it's almost impossible to get up.

And then, one day, it just seems to lift a bit.

So unpredictable and so ruthless....

{{{{{Twisted_Soul}}}}}

Having some clarity today.
Wanting to deal with my depression by kicking it's butt.
I know I can. I know people IRL and in PC land really do care.