[purplephantom]

This is a depressing thought so it might be best not to read it.

Last December I was reading a book when I came across the following quote: "I'm scared to die. Everything is temporary, and this fact hurts me. It hurts me a lot." At first I tried to brush it off, but it really bothered me. Eventually I became obsessed with death and it terrified me. I wanted to make the most of every moment I had alive. Later I began to question what the point of being alive was. Life doesn't seem to matter. You're born, you do stuff, you die. For what? It doesn't make any sense to me. I sometimes think that it would have been better if nothing ever existed. Existence seems like a curse.

I used to be relatively happy and I looked forward to the future but not anymore. I don't care about anything now. I have become emotionally numb. I can't function. I used to adore my family and now I can't feel anything for them. I'm hardly able to eat anything. Everything I used to enjoy is now meaningless and I get no pleasure from it. I don't know how anyone goes about life with purpose. To me it seems like it has no purpose at all. Even if you make a positive difference in the world what does it matter? Life is still just as pointless.

I could really use some help. Is there any hope for me?

[Callmebj]

obsessing about death is really a good way to help yourself into depression. You are here to accomplish to be part of the fluidity of life, to be an positive addition to your
generation and to love, laugh, feel, think and do. I have faith there is an eternal life, when we get through with this one...and at my age, that's not that far away.

value your existance and use it for the betterment of family, friends, lovers, community ect. how you live your life is very important and meaningful for yourself and others. you may not go down in the history books, you may never be rich and famous, but you are here to have a worthwhile existance. sorry about your funk, but getting a positive insight will be rewarding. bj

[dazeofdolphins]

I can't speak for you, only for me. I felt like you did at times in-between my teens and my 30's. Then something wonderful happened. I had a child and she changed my life. Now when things get tough I think of her and that makes life worthwhile. Sometimes it is helpful to try to live for others when we can't do so for ourselves. Also, consider the very real possibly that you are going through a normal developmental phase that needs to run it's course and then it will leave. Try not to make big decisions right now. Sit back and observe and see what happens. You really sound normal to me


[RIGyou[/RIGHT]

Originally Posted by purplephantom

This is a depressing thought so it might be best not to read it.

Last December I was reading a book when I came across the following quote: "I'm scared to die. Everything is temporary, and this fact hurts me. It hurts me a lot." At first I tried to brush it off, but it really bothered me. Eventually I became obsessed with death and it terrified me. I wanted to make the most of every moment I had alive. Later I began to question what the point of being alive was. Life doesn't seem to matter. You're born, you do stuff, you die. For what? It doesn't make any sense to me. I sometimes think that it would have been better if nothing ever existed. Existence seems like a curse.

I used to be relatively happy and I looked forward to the future but not anymore. I don't care about anything now. I have become emotionally numb. I can't function. I used to adore my family and now I can't feel anything for them. I'm hardly able to eat anything. Everything I used to enjoy is now meaningless and I get no pleasure from it. I don't know how anyone goes about life with purpose. To me it seems like it has no purpose at all. Even if you make a positive difference in the world what does it matter? Life is still just as pointless.

I could really use some help. Is there any hope for me?

[purplephantom]

Thank you both. Really helpful advice.

[CgRgSm]

I have been told I am a very negative person, so take what I'm saying lightly and laugh at it if you must; but this is what I think, honestly.

In my mind:

Life has no point.
There isn't a right or wrong, there just is.
"Choices" or "decisions" that people think they make are illusions.
Everything will happen as it will.
There is no justice, or crime.
There is no such thing as "fault".
There is no such thing as love, only manipulation.

Life simply is, as somebody that I don't know once said, cause and effect.

[Kymaro]

DgRgSM
Interesting poem, but I feel it not a good view of life.

Life has a point - the point that we live to affect our own lives or others.
Your right, thing are "just is". Right or wrong is our choice to make it.
We all have a choice and they have consequences.
true as no such think as fault only taking reponsibility for our actions.
there is such a think called Love. It has to be earned and honored for it to exsist.

Life is far from simple....its very complex and requires thought, action and motivation to survive.