.........I won't

[stern]

I do. Nice to know you don't. Just hold on and you'll surely get your way out.
Good Luck!

Originally Posted by stern

I do. Nice to know you don't. Just hold on and you'll surely get your way out.
Good Luck!

luck.............

[lancetrot]

Never...

[ur_ladybird]

Dangerous question to ask. I've been on both sides. Helping for people not to die and wanting to die. Feeling suicidal is a lot of times having come to the end of the road and not being able to see a way out. Not being able to deal with the amount of pain one feels, physically and mentally.

The fight to survive is incredible hard. Anyone who feels suicidal and on the end of the road... Please don't keep it to yourself. Talk to someone about it, you don't have to cope with these feelings on your own!

Glad you don't want to die today, me neither... Which means I can tick another day in the calendar were I made it.

[di meliora]

I have prayed for death. When the fear and anxiety are crushing. People tell you you scare them. The anger is heart attack intense. Even the walls would rather not listen. Waking is a disappointment. And, no amount of will or thought make a difference. All alone, even if people are around you.

Somehow, you get through it.

I want to die right now.....

just not enough to do it

hold that

hold that tight

[puzzclar]

It's like your signature, it's a mental fight.

[CgRgSm]

Very much so. I hate my life, always have. Every day I hope that I never wake up. I have never known what happiness is. However, I have made a vow to myself that I won't kill myself, for my family, and because I don't have what it takes anyway. But yes, absolutely no will to live. I wouldn't mind if a meteor came down and killed me instantly.

Originally Posted by CgRgSm

Very much so. I hate my life, always have. Every day I hope that I never wake up. I have never known what happiness is. However, I have made a vow to myself that I won't kill myself, for my family, and because I don't have what it takes anyway. But yes, absolutely no will to live. I wouldn't mind if a meteor came down and killed me instantly.

then we have alot in common

[ur_ladybird]

Its painful to hear when someone doesn't want to live anymore. Like I said... The struggle to survive, staying alive is Sooo difficult.

I'm glad each of you has found something which keeps you alive for the moment. Not wanting to die enough means hope for me. Somewhere inside you is a grain of hope... Grains can grow. And not wanting to hurt the family means you care. It's a grain of hope as well... A little light and water is like a drop of water in the lake. It has a ripple effect.

That kind of makes today a good day!

[SophiaG]

I could give you a million and 1 reasons but i don't think that's appropriate on this site.

Originally Posted by SophiaG

I could give you a million and 1 reasons but i don't think that's appropriate on this site.

..

.it don't work for me now

[gafferoo]

I have never really considered it an option and it bums me out that people would consider it.

With that being said, in the back of my head, I feel like if everything in life went to **** it is an absolute last resort... That thought bothers me because it seems like an easy way out.

[DamienV]

for me yes i would love to but i dont want to kill myself i rather have something else kill me i dont know

[ur_ladybird]

Originally Posted by DamienV

for me yes i would love to but i dont want to kill myself i rather have something else kill me i dont know

I know THAT feeling.

[Lauru]

Absolutely. I'd love to off myself right now. Would too, except I have people depending on me. Still, you never know. Hopefully one day soon

[tattoogirl33]

Most days I wish I had cancer or some terminal illness (which in a way these are, just they drag on forever) instead of these aweful disorders.. at least then I would know I could be cured or an end was in sight... sad

[Insento]

I feel the same way CgRgSm feels as far as the will to live. I honestly hate my life and have for a long time but im to scared of what i dont know to kill myself plus i couldnt do it knowing how upset my mom and cousin would be. They're very supportive,but to deal with my constant problems day to day most of the time it dont seem worth it.

[whenwillitend]

Yes, absolutely. Especially when that happens at night, the thought of not having to wake up again to face another day makes me feel....relieved?.....excited?....calm?.....happy?

[Bmee2]

Why did you ask this question?
I do not want to give up my chance at life...but sometimes i think i have made such a mess that i need to go. i am sad that some people want to give up their chance. With life there is a chance of some happiness. With death, there is guaranteed perpetual unhappy spirit. It would be terrible if giving up this chance meant an eternity of the misery you are currently facing. Ugh! Rest. Take one moment at a time and try to get some help so that you can experience a happier existence.

Yeah I want to die. I'm not wanted here.

[Bmee2]

I read what everyone has written and i am very very sad. i feel as though many of us are drowning in the middle of an ocean. There is no land in sight, no log to cling to, just water water every where. i am struggling to stay afloat. It somehow gives me strength to know there are others out in the ocean too; i just cannot see or hear them. Yet to know some are going to stop fighting and just go to sleep in the cold ocean water, makes my struggle all the harder. i so understand the fatigue, alone-ness, isolation, and hunger.
But i remember the sounds of birds outside my window. i remember laughing so hard it was painful to breathe. i remember when a dog wanted to be with me and allowed me to love it. i do not have a dog but would like to have one. Not sure what the good love feels like, but i know it must be like the sun...warm, enriching and...no words to describe how ... it must be. Well, i guess not everyone will survive. i really hope those that do not make it...i hope what happens next is a relief from all the pain. Personally, i do not think the supreme being will be angry. I think the supreme being knows and will forgive the decision to let go.

I did once but not anymore, My family mean so much to me and are the reasons why I want to be here, I Imagine their pain if I was to kill myself it would be devastating.