getting through the day

I just want to leave work and go home and sleep. I am counting the hours until I can jump back in bed and sleep.

I have a doc's appt tonight at 7pm. I don't want to go to that either. Nothing new to share or evaluate, at least I don't think.

I'm having a hard time getting through the day - haven't got much done. It's about 75 degrees in my office, so I'm getting sleepy. I haven't eaten lunch b/c I don't want to. Too lazy to get something from the cafe (one building over) and it's super cold outside.

I was contemplating taking a nap during my lunch break..shutting my door and putting my head back. I just am afraid I'll never wake up.

I don't have the job to run interference so I have been in bed all day. Honestly, I don't know how well this is helping my depression but at least I don't have to deal with anything. I should be out buying Valentine's gifts but I can't stand that day so I am avoiding until the last minute. Your fantasy I understand but try to find some comfort in knowing you at least have a job to go to. Your depression will pass. This crazy economy may stay for another 5 years according to my financial adviser. Maybe you can find time to exercise your depression after dinner, say an early bed?
dazeofdolphins

Aw, be kind to yourself. I'm sure you have good intentions to go out and buy Valentine's Day gifts...it's always nice to have those intentions, but sometimes it's just hard to follow through when you are feeling low. I'm glad you can relate, though.

You are right - I am glad I have a job. I am interviewing people for some new positions at the school and we are lucky in the fact that we ARE hiring - we received a grant that allows us to do that. I should be counting my blessings that I have a job, but I'm not. Hard to do I guess.

I don't know if i shoudl give in to my desire to just go home and go to bed, or if I should force myself to do something else. I have a counselor appt at 7-8pm, so that will at least keep me awake until then. I usually am glad when 9pm comes around b/c then I can just call it a day and go to sleep. I really should walk my dog, at least....poor thing. He deserves so much better than me.

I share the same feeling. I go to work alienated, put a normal-person mask and live the daily struggle. wish I was home, doing absolutely nothing.
sometimes I feel like I shouldn't have a girlfriend, since I do so much for her, everything seems like it's heavy burden, but I do, for her. it makes me so tired.