[Justme_55]

I can't find a job, id be considered a stay at home mom by default. My son has no respect for me and I feel like a parrot constantly repeating myself for him to do the little things like get dressed. I've lost my own identity, I'm bored and the frustration of failing has just sunk me low. I realized last night after re activating my Facebook I'm the root of others mocking, even my own mother had sarcasm all over her profile passively digging at my parenting, my not working, my hair color, (I was a strawberry redhead as a child so I just consider myself a red head, where she states I'm a blonde and literally mocked that on one of MY friends pics) I thought my mom and I were close but seeing the comments and such just made my walls go up & made me realize I can't trust a soul.
I feel useless, I don't feel anything other then apathy. Im merely a semi functioning human floating in the universe. I have no idea who I am and can't seem to care.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Justme_55

I feel useless, I don't feel anything other then apathy. Im merely a semi functioning human floating in the universe.

Goodness -- that strikes close to home!

***Sigh*** Justme_55, I'm sorry you find yourself an object of mockery and disrespect. Your status says that you are "reading a great book." The people who mock you won't see your ability to read a book and appreciate its greatness. They can't see your mind interacting with the ideas and emotions in its pages. If they could, would you rise in their esteem, or are they determined to look down upon you no matter what?

May some mysterious strength find you and make your detractors' critiques ridiculous.

[cbreeze22]

Originally Posted by Justme_55

I can't find a job, id be considered a stay at home mom by default. My son has no respect for me and I feel like a parrot constantly repeating myself for him to do the little things like get dressed. I've lost my own identity, I'm bored and the frustration of failing has just sunk me low. I realized last night after re activating my Facebook I'm the root of others mocking, even my own mother had sarcasm all over her profile passively digging at my parenting, my not working, my hair color, (I was a strawberry redhead as a child so I just consider myself a red head, where she states I'm a blonde and literally mocked that on one of MY friends pics) I thought my mom and I were close but seeing the comments and such just made my walls go up & made me realize I can't trust a soul.
I feel useless, I don't feel anything other then apathy. Im merely a semi functioning human floating in the universe. I have no idea who I am and can't seem to care.

I'm so sorry! I wish I was a wise soul that could deliver the exact right words to make you feel as worthy as you are. If it helps at all, your post read like I could have written it, except for feeling close to my mother and being a redhead. I know how it feels, and I hope you can believe you will have brighter days.

[JLarissaDragon]

I am so sorry for what you are going through. I find that people who are sarcastic and put others down with degrading and overly critical attitudes are the ones with the greater problems. Depression is not something that you can choose not to have and it just goes away. It is a struggle. Some days I feel ok and then there are the days that I just have to push myself to keep going and I function like a zombie. When I get cruelly put down I sink even deeper into depression. If possible can you find positive and accepting people to surround yourself with whenever possible. Apparently that is not your family. No one needs nor deserves to be treated in the manner you describe. You are God's creation and a worthwhile, valuable human being. I am glad that you have come to pc. There are many supportive people here who care about the struggles of others and will provide the validation that you need and deserve. Please do not give up. we care.
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