I just need help

I honestly don't know where else to put this, so I decided here.

I have this friend, but I won't say his name. He's also on here, so I'm praying he doesn't see this. I've known him for a while now, around three years, and we used to be very close. Like, super close, but now everything is different. We actually met each other online and would video chat often, which is how we got to being such good friends. I considered him one of my best friends because he's always so understanding, caring, and so much more. But ever since around a month ago things have changed so much.

He's become so distant. It's to the point where I feel stupid talking to him because he might not message back. I get upset, but I just like hearing from him. I know he has a dissociative disorder along with depression and some eating issues, but he also knows that I'm always there for him no matter what. He's one of those people that I just can't stay mad at. Now, I've dealt and still deal with what he deals with on a daily basis, but everytime I try to talk to him and let him know how I feel when he ignores me, my thoughts get all jumbled and I can't say what I need to say.

Like tonight. I skyped with him for about a half hour and throughout the whole thing I was crying my eyes out. I just wanted him to understand how much he meant to me, but there's this little feeling inside me saying 'don't try anymore. he probably could care less about you.' And that stupid feeling is killing me, because what if it's true? He says he cares, but maybe it's because he doesn't want to hurt my feelings? I don't know..

Basically what I'm trying to say is that I'm stuck, and I need help on this whole situation. I'm sorry if none of this makes sense. It's really hard for me to form my thoughts into words.

Would it be easier for you if you e-mailed him? Sometimes it's easier if you're not "looking" at the person or actually talking to them. Putting it down on 'paper' is sometimes easier. And he might be more apt to be honest with you in a reply e-mail too.

The way he's acting could be part of his disorder too. He might be having a particularly bad time at present. So try not to push TOO hard -- hopefully he'll tell you in the e-mail what's going on.

If the two of you didn't have any argument or misunderstanding, I don't think I'd worry too much. Just write him, and see what happens. But like I said, try not to pressure him TOO much -- you don't want to scare him away. God bless and good luck! Hugs, Lee