[fearofmania]

I have been going through a rise and fall of stability and behaviors that are borderline manic. I spent eight months medicated for depression but it is difficult to find time away from work especially when I did not realize any calming or changes from the medicine. I feel like my head is racing all the time and feel like i am struggling to stay above water with my finances and spending. I make enough that I should not be so tight financially. and then there are the sexual thoughts. I abstain but I am still thinking of it all the time and have little to no filter when it comes to men. I am afraid of losing more control and my thoughts turning into actions and possibly placing myself in dangerous situations.

[Suki22]

welcome!

have you talked to a therapist about your control issues?

[kaliope]

i spent over eight years actively searching for all kinds of non-medicinal treatments for my bipolar. i tried to 12 step it away. i became a reiki master. energy medicine. balancing chakras. crystals. hypnosis. therapy. massage therapy. all sorts of spiritual paths........it finally took being handcuffed on a 72 hour hold out of a psychiatrist office at the college medical center to acknowledge that meds were the final resort...and now almost five years later and stable as can be, i wished i had taken them 30 years ago. could have saved a whole lotta pain and suffering.