[ColourBars]

I feel good. I have a pretty stable situation in my life. Things are going well. I go to school and work part time. I'm not starving. I have clothes. I rent out a place. It's a good. I have people who love me and a partner who's always by my side.

But occasionally, I start day dreaming about committing suicide. I would stop what I'm doing, or if I'm already stopped, I would envision myself about to execute my own death in whatever shape or form it may be.

I'm kinda at a loss at why my brain just goes there. I do get stressed about certain things occasionally, but it's not an extreme / life or death situation that occurs to me. There's no reason why I should think about death and I should be happy with things I got. Why? Cause I got them. And they are very important to me.

The dream frightens me yet it relieves/releases me. The thought of the dream doing the combo of feelings alone quite irk me actually...

Does anyone else kinda go on these suicidal day dreams once in a while?

[CgRgSm]

Yeah, I do, but I think about it all the time. One day one of my co-workers asked me if I ever just wanted to shoot myself (my job is sometimes stressful). I replied, "Yes, every day". But like you, there's really nothing in my life per say, nothing really bad. I have everything I need to live, well, hmm maybe not. I don't know what is wrong with me. But yes, I day dream, or, well, in my case night dream (but not while asleep because I work the graveyard shift) about really bad things. I sit there and think of different things I could say on my death note - not that it would matter.. sigh.. I am miserable. I feel an unexplainable emptiness and loneliness, no words can describe what I feel. Well, good luck to you.

[The Wobbitt]

yes, I do have thoughts like that, usually when im alone or feel lonely. Homicidal thoughts are common for me as well, which really makes me feel like crap. The main point is that they are just daydreams, not compulsions. You shouldnt give them much credit.