[No_longer_sane]

Heyy, this is kinda an update and me asking some questions, and this is probably the most awkward one to write, because Ive had my moments where Ive came close to getting depressed again, but Im not now, its just, apparantly you can get these as after effects of depression, so I thought I'd ask here. I cant remember anything. Well, not anything, I can remember main events over the last couple of years, deaths and weddings, and who is my friend, and names, but everything else is gone. Aside from the past few weeks, and being depressed and exams, there is nothing I can remember. Its like my whole life is gone. And then I can barely sleep at night, because I go out with my friends practically evey day, and for some reason I get all nervous about seeing them, and I dont know why =S But for example, last night I woke up at half 3, then 5, then half 8, and when I woke up, I didnt wanna do anything, not even sleep, just lie there, not even thinking. And I havent been eating recently, I feel hungry, my stomach growls but the thought of eating makes me feel sick. And I have these real dreams, last night I had one where I was pregnant, and I wasnt eating still, and people were saying youve gotta eat, for the baby, and then i woke up and cried for ages because I wanted the baby to be real. Im fifteen! Anyone have any ideas what to do? Sorry for the rambling. x

[lxegirl]

I say def talk to your doctor, your problems definitely aren't normal (obviously). Maybe your brain is like...having issues, idk. I'm 15 too ^.^ But maybe just take it easy for a bit. Good Luck!!!!

Please get some help, No_longer_sane. Something is not right here.

((((((( No_longer_sane )))))))

[Lisa Michelle]

I'm sorry to hear you're going through this. Do you have anyone you can talk to (in real life), like a friend or parent? I think it might be a good idea to go to a doctor, too. Even if it's just that he's going to reassure you and explain how/why you're feeling like this (if he knows!). But if you have been depressed before it's good if you have someone around you looking out for you, so they can tell you when they think you're getting ill or something.

Just want to add that if you're not eating properly it affects your memory. I eat badly on and off, and have began eating badly lately and the difference in my memory is crazy, I'm having to try really hard to remember things the day before... things like that. So your memory loss could be party because of that. And also maybe... stress?

[No_longer_sane]

Thanks, I gunna tell my friend today I think, I have three friends I could tell but Ill probably just tell one, anyways, Im just a little confused as well, Im remembering a bit more, Like main events and things but whole years of my life are blank, whereas the past couple I can remember a few things and main events x

[turquoisesea]

It's good to tell your friends, I think you also need to talk to a general doctor, who can then direct you to either treatment or someone else to talk to.

Take care.

[thine_self_untrue]

(((((((((No_longer_sane)))))))))))
It's been so much to long, friend. Please, please, please, get help.

How are you doing, No_longer_sane?

[No_longer_sane]

Im actually doing okay, Im coping with this for once, its mainly the loss of appetite and maternal feelings Im struggling with, the memory loss is difficult, but Ive been trying to concentrate on the future, which is difficult when you dont have a past. I dont feel trigger-y or anything, just worried and a little scared. xxx