[CgRgSm]

Hi, I was going to write a poem, but I suck at writing. Every day, I have a hard time doing anything cause I can't stop thinking about death and dying. I feel some dark days approaching...

I lie here awake, every morning, thinking too much. Can't stop thinking, about people dying, one day they're here, the next they're gone, no one even cares. I'd like to think that I care, but I think the reason no one can really care is because no one can really understand anyone else. People are born, people die, circle of life, right? I hate this life, everything about it, nothing will convince me to smile or laugh. No joke will ever make me laugh again. Can't help human instincts, hate being human. Every day I say I wish I was never born, I get no pleasure from this life. So alone, in a prison in my head, it will never end til' I'm dead, but it will go on for the rest of you.

It may not be a poem but it's kind of poetic. I like it. I'm sorry that life is so empty for you at this time.
To some of us the good times are like small islands in a huge ocean of sadness and pain.
The islands are few and far between and we can't stay for long for whatever reason. Maybe we have to keep moving. The islands are there however. Look for them and try to appreciate the brief time you can spend there.

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((CgRgSm))))

Thank you for posting. I am sorry you are feeling the way you are but I can say I understand at least in what you are saying. I too wish I was never born. But I also know that somewhere there is a reason we were born and a reason for being. We may not know that reason right now but one day we will. Maybe it is being here and being able to connect to others and to somehow understand at least some of what they are feeling and going through. Maybe it is to reach others and to give even a ray of hope.

Just know that you are not alone. I feel dark days are here for me right now too but I know that they do lift at times and I agree with George H that it is during those times the darkness lifts that we have to hold on to those times as best we can when they do come. My mind seems to be spinning right now and I cannot seem to slow it down or even step out of it. But I know that it will slow again at some point.

I know that others cannot know exactly how we feel or understand what is going on but there are people who care and are here to listen, support, encourage, and help in just sharing what we can and hoping that somehow something we can share or say will help. I do hope you will keep reaching out and talking. There are many here that can relate to how you are feeling and what you are saying.

Just know that you are not alone and we do care and are hearing you. Sending you gentle hugs (if okay).

dps