[BleedingDestruction]

Well, I've been gone for quite awhile. Long story short, I was on meds; they made me suicidal, and I called a hotline. Next thing I know, I'm at the ER, and my mom's crying because I scared her. And then I'm sent to Coastal Harbor Mental Hospital and I spend nine days in hell. Now I'm seeing two p docs and a T. Also, I'm on Celexa and Abilify.

But I want to tell the long version. Except I'm too tired to write anything right now. So I'll post it in pieces.

[Idiot17]

G'luck with your struggles

[cajun]

Just started taking Abilify myself. I also take Cymbalta.

[Idiot17]

Wat was it like there? Im so scared my T is gonna send me there.

[carrie_ann]

((((((((BleedingDestruction))))))))

[gma45]

So sorry you are having to go through this. I hope things are getting better for you.

[Nammu]

After the long dark of the night, comes the light.

[Mike_J]

My now ex-psychiatrist dumped me because I didn't call her because the meds she had me on made me to start having suicidal thoughts.

I just think doctors should be a bit more cautious when handing out meds that can cause those sorts of thoughts, seems like they just toss out massive levels of some very powerful drugs. And while suicidal thoughts are something that needs to be taken seriously but just seems that there should be some sort of middle ground instead of locking someone up just for realizing that their meds are causing them to have unwanted thoughts.

[taylor43]

((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))) sorry to hear you are going through a tough time. We are here for you.

((((Hugs)))) to you. We are here whenever you need us

[skyscraper]

I'm so sorry you had to go through that!

[BleedingDestruction]

It was a Saturday night. I'd been getting worse and worse on the Prozac, but I didn't want to upset my parents, so I didn't say anything. I resorted to hiding in the bathroom while I was babysitting my siblings, Lisa and Paul, and cutting my arms. In that bathroom, I was so close to just trying to kill myself with the razor. Then I remembered. Lisa and Paul would be alone downstairs. They'd kill each other. So I threw it away and waited for my mom and dad to come home.

But I began planning. I could shoot myself! That was my idea. It was then I called a suicide hotline. And mom and dad came home. They took the phone. And thus, I was shipped off to the ER.

[ponder1973]

I'm so sorry you went through that. My wife used to cut herself too. She still has times she's tempted to. Her brother molested her and her mother blamed my wife. The sent my wife to a lockdown too. She was terrified for years after we got married that I would send her to one. It always surprised me when she voiced that fear because it never occurred to me to do that. My understanding, and I could be wrong, is that cutting yourself is a way to control the pain. Is that true? If so, what is it that is causing you pain?

[BleedingDestruction]

Originally Posted by ponder1973

My understanding, and I could be wrong, is that cutting yourself is a way to control the pain. Is that true? If so, what is it that is causing you pain?

I can't handle my panic attacks, so I cut myself to control them. And I'm very sensitive, so one insult crushes me.

[AllHere63]

I'm so sorry you had such a bad experience. Are you OK now?

[BleedingDestruction]

Oh, I'm much better now. I'm on meds that work better and are helping me more. My family is more supportive and my friends are very understanding.

[Touch of gray]

Be gentle with yourself. (((((hugs)))))