[kvinneakt]

Oh man! I got a cold, felt terrible, stayed home Friday, and hit the bottom fast!

I have been quite good for months. A simple illness set me off with suicidal ideation and general bed ridden depression. What a fcuking wus!

Today I got out to do some shopping chores and that resulted in near hyperventilating anxiety.

Now I am on my 2nd alcoholic drink to try to calm down. Don't worry, I am not a regular drinker. It is medicinal.

Anyway... (bad use of ellipsis) I see many of my old friends are still hanging around here. I guess that is good, but not certain of that. Shouldn't you all be "getting better" by now and living real, not cyber, lives?

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[Peanut61]

Hi ((((Kvinn)))): I'm sorry to read about that awful cold of yours = yuk. I understand about he anxiety = if I don't go out for even a day or two, still, my anxiety comes back, (but not as bad as when I stayed in the house all of the time, and then thought about trying to go out - whew).

I'm aware of quite a number of folks who have their depression pay them a visit when they come down sick = but I don't recall stories of it staying around all that long after one returns to wellness, so hopefully that will be the case for you. Just a bit of a dip, hopefully.

Well, you've been missed around here. I applied for a job coordinating homeless services for my county, but have not heard about an interview. Hopefully, soon.

Take care, OK, and I hope you will visit us once in a while. There is an APB out for you in the general section under 'vett, hey-hey' (or something like that ). Very warmest regards, Peanut

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[Duchess]

Hello Kvinneakt,
Just wanted to say hope you get better soon....

ABOUT THE NINTH HOUR JESUS CRIED OUT IN A LOAD VOICE, "ELOI,ELOI, LAMA SABACHTHANI?"~WHICH MEANS~"MY GOD, MY GOD,WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?"
~MATTHEW27:46.
MY GOD,MY GOD WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?WHY ARE YOU SO FAR FROM SAVING ME,SO FAR FROM THE WORDS OF MY GROANING?~ PSALM 22:1

[SeptemberMorn]

Hey, Kvinn... sorry to hear you're feeling bad. Hope the depression/anxiety goes away soon.

But, hey... this place isn't just for sick people without a life. I, for one, have a life... here and in 3D. I'm sure lots of other people do, too. Just because we aren't in the depths doesn't mean we don't want to keep in touch with friends we've made here. Some of us stick around to lend support, too, ya know! This board and it's members have become part of our lives. I sure hope you're not calling us all loosers.



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[krzyk101]

Hello K

I hope you are feeling better , and that you get well soon.

I am new and am forever grateful for these people who have been on this site
since I joined. I is thier feedback and support that helps me through the day. They
have posted many, notes that have been very helpful to me and my struggle of
depression and anxiety.

I know how easy it is to feel so negative when you are depressed and don't feel well

Happy Holidays,
KRZYKRIS

KRZYKRIS

[kvinneakt]

Wow! I am not too sure what the Biblical quote is all about, but it's real, uh, WOW! i guess.

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[kvinneakt]

"loosers" ???

No way. Sorry it came out that way.

It is just my habit or preference or whatever, that when I have been in therapy, that I break away from it as soon as possible.

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[kvinneakt]

Back at work today with a cough and drippy nose, but otherwise 90% better. No problem, no work to do anyway.

It is frightening how physical illness can trigger such a nightmarish emotional state. I can see how in some ancient cultures the old and infirm would just wander off into the cold night to die and be eaten by animals.

Sorry about my cynical commentary. It is not like I "got better" and got a real life. I am not generally depressed, but also don't generally have a real life, either. Or a cyber life. Just sucking air.... Maybe I am still depressed, but just not painfully so.

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[SeptemberMorn]

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"Sorry about my cynical commentary. It is not like I "got better" and got a real life. I am not generally depressed, but also don't generally have a real life, either. Or a cyber life. Just sucking air.... Maybe I am still depressed, but just not painfully so."

I didn't really think you meant it that way. Don't we get so cynical when we get depressed?? YIKES I guess I'm not the only one.

Ah, Kvinn, you have a life, it's just your depression lying to you again! (sigh!) Hey... you've got a wife that loves you, a job (even if it's not the most thrilling), a home, kids... Those things in themselves make for a life, ok?

Glad you're up to a sniffle instead of down to full blown pneumonia!



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[Duchess]

Your nothing but Nasty!!!!
pick up the bible....
wishing I never responded, guess this...

Though I have fallen, I will rise.
though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light
...He will bring me out into the light; I will see his
righteousness........... Micah 7:8-9

[kvinneakt]

Sorry Duchess. I have not been keeping up and did not know it was your custom to put a Bible message in your posts. I misread it as a special message just for me and was not sure how to take it.

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[SeptemberMorn]

Easy, Duchess! Kvinn isn't nasty at all. He's a very sensitive man. You'll like him if you get to know him... promise!



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[Duchess]

Kvin I apologize to you...
I thought you were making fun of me & calling me a looser.
I can be a little evil when I feel hurt. Just a little sensitive is all.
I'll trust what September says, b/c she's been very kind to me since I'v enterd this forum.she's given me great advice.
if she says you are a kind man then I truely apologize to you.
hope you are feeling better and stay a bit longer....

~~~~~~~~~~ hoping we can be friends~ Duchess~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Though I have fallen, I will rise.
though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light
...He will bring me out into the light; I will see his
righteousness........... Micah 7:8-9

[kvinneakt]

Thanks Duchess, but don't let it bother you a bit. I am all too aware of how mixed up e messaging can get.

I am basically over my cold only to renew my friendship with insomnia.

I used to have an hour or two of wakefulness every night, then psy meds ended the problem. I have now been med free for many months.

The past 3 nights have been 3-4 hours of very fitful sleep, then wide awake and no more sleep. It was not too bad until today. I am having major cognitive problems like not knowing my work computer password that I have used for months and difficulty forming understandable speech. It looks like I can type allright. It is very weird and unpleasant.

Someone asked about my wandering son. He returned from Japan about 10 days ago. He was glad to return and does not want to go back. He was very surprised by his home town roots and their pull on him. His girlfriend who was with him in Japan, di dnot wnat to return here and is already planning her return to Japan.

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[Serenity]

*sneaking up behind Kvinn.......HUG!!!!!* Have missed you my friend....ahhh..."KIDS" ...glad he's hoem where you can worry closer lol....g/f's can come and go too ,huh
Hope you get yourself straightened out there iwth the sleep. I can empathize
Ive missed you
Jenn

[heatherm]

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I am joining in saying how much I missed you too. You must be relieved about your son returning home. What are his plans now?

Have you tried some of the old fashioned insomnia remedies? warm milk? warm bath? I find it so hard on those nights too and my thoughts are with you. What does work for me is that I take my meds (Celexa) at bedtime and within an hour I can barey keep my eyes open.

Hope you have a pleasant evening and a good sleep tonight. It is great to see you back.


Heather

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life - it goes on."
~~Robert Frost

[Sam]

Hey KV (((((HUGS))))),

Glad to see you're over that cold and hoping you get to feeling better.

Your friend Sam

"You'll never know what you're capable of if you don't try."

[Duchess]

Insomnia is my middle name. I~ like you have been off of meds for a while now. There are days where I find it so hard to concentrate or speak. or better yet remmber my name, passwords or where I live and how to get there. I have to say Septembermorning Recommended Tylonal PM and to a certain extent it has been helping out.
Wow, Japan huh.. hope he had fun. sure your happy to have him back home, sorry to hear about his girlfriend wanting to go back.
why does she want to go back? well hope all is well...

Though I have fallen, I will rise.
though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light
...He will bring me out into the light; I will see his
righteousness........... Micah 7:8-9

[Fuzzybear]

Good to see you back kv, you have been missed. Warm regards, the fuzzy one x