[clouds_and_sun]

Well I confronted my "online friend" about what was hurting me and how her actions lately of leaving me out or only talking to me when she is bored and making one excuse after another for not talking to me, made me feel like I want to be dead, how I have a strong desire to be dead.
Well, she did respond to my confronting her, but her responce was to get professional help (see a T), duh I know that, she knows I know that, but now everyone that I talked to on that forum (note: not here) has avoided me too and keeps on saying go get help. Yes that is obvous that I need help (to find a T) but I also need a friend, someone who will talk to me, I don't need someone to push me away. Why should I even bother to get help if I can't have a friend to talk to, while my only offline friend is hardly home.
Now I have no online friends, they treat me like I am a freak or something cause of my feelings. I just want a friend along with getting seeking help a T. Someone to talk to me, that I can help them as well as they can help me by just being a friend. But now that I have lost the little amount of friends that I have online I see no reason to go one living or to get help.
Please I beg you, if you are going to be harsh in your reply please don't reply, or if you are going to tell me that I need a T then please don't reply, I know that already. See, I am so close to the edge of taking my life, closer than I have been in many many years. I just want an online friend to talk to daily (who is around my age and has time to talk, I am in my 30s), I can't take this loneliness anymore
If I do not survive this cause no one wants to talk to me and the loneliness gets too hard for me to bear, I want you to know that I thank you with all my heart for all the advice that you have given me in the past. I hope that you all heal, I really do.

[dailyhealing]

I am sorry you are hurting so much! While I can't agree to talk daily, I am always happy to receive PMs! I hope you will keep posting on here and not give up!

[Puffyprue]

Hi clouds and sun, iam so sorry that you are hurting * hugs*
you can always pm me if you want to talk and i will reply you best as i could, but i have my own issue and sometimes i dont feel like talking but on my fine days i always reply people

hugs as much as you need

[Rohag]

((((((( Clouds_and_Sun! )))))))

Originally Posted by clouds_and_sun

I just want a friend along with getting seeking help a T.

This is an entirely sound, reasonable desire.

Originally Posted by clouds_and_sun

...they treat me like I am a freak or something cause of my feelings.

Sad. In my experience the number of people with whom I can trust my real feelings is small.

I agree. The seriousness of your situation requires multiple "helps" -- T, friends in "real life," online friends, etc. The more allies you have, the greater the chances you'll survive this fight.

Please keep trying, dear Clouds_and_Sun

[LadyShadow]

You can always talk to me too, I am in my 30s and I wouldn't mind an online friend. You are not alone I don't want you to feel that you are. PM me anytime. HUGS!

[bobbie58]

You can PM me. I think that's the word for it. I just joined tonight because I am in a low low low depression right now. I have been going through withdrawls from dr prescribed klonopin and just about checked out it was so horrid. I am alone so I had to go back on it so my husband could go back to work as a long distance truck driver. I have no family here and 2 of my close friends moved to other states far away. Now I am depressed and anxious at the same time. If anything maybe just having someone to hear you can help? Write to me if you want to and I will definately write as well.
Sincerely, Bobbie

[cookfan56]

Originally Posted by clouds_and_sun

Well I confronted my "online friend" about what was hurting me and how her actions lately of leaving me out or only talking to me when she is bored and making one excuse after another for not talking to me, made me feel like I want to be dead, how I have a strong desire to be dead.
Well, she did respond to my confronting her, but her responce was to get professional help (see a T), duh I know that, she knows I know that, but now everyone that I talked to on that forum (note: not here) has avoided me too and keeps on saying go get help. Yes that is obvous that I need help (to find a T) but I also need a friend, someone who will talk to me, I don't need someone to push me away. Why should I even bother to get help if I can't have a friend to talk to, while my only offline friend is hardly home.
Now I have no online friends, they treat me like I am a freak or something cause of my feelings. I just want a friend along with getting seeking help a T. Someone to talk to me, that I can help them as well as they can help me by just being a friend. But now that I have lost the little amount of friends that I have online I see no reason to go one living or to get help.
Please I beg you, if you are going to be harsh in your reply please don't reply, or if you are going to tell me that I need a T then please don't reply, I know that already. See, I am so close to the edge of taking my life, closer than I have been in many many years. I just want an online friend to talk to daily (who is around my age and has time to talk, I am in my 30s), I can't take this loneliness anymore
If I do not survive this cause no one wants to talk to me and the loneliness gets too hard for me to bear, I want you to know that I thank you with all my heart for all the advice that you have given me in the past. I hope that you all heal, I really do.

Please don't do this,, especially over an online friendship! I could write a book on the problems I had with online friendships in the past. They are fleeting, hurtful, people can be very cliquish, and real, face to face emotion is not involved. I believe *this* forum can be very helpful, but don't base any decisions online "friendships".

I am older than you but would be happy to talk to you, too. I don't know anything about any cliques here but am happy to offer support.

Please try to get any real life support you can, and I don't just mean a therapist but anyone else in real life who you know supports you. I also have "lost" one of my dearest real life friends, not to death, but because her husband is very ill and she is never around anymore.

[mountainstream]

I agree with the poster above. Online "friendships" often are fleeting and hurtful! Frequently, people are cliquish, just as in real life.

I hope you find good support soon. Sending you hugs.

[Shadow-world]

Clouds_and_sun,

I'm sorry you're feeling so lonely and low! Please feel free to message me as well.
I know you said you'd like to have someone to talk to every day. I can't promise this, as I (especially when I will hopefully go back to work) just don't manage to be online all the time and sometimes - like the last two weeks - I have such a bad time that I can't think straight and am not in a good position to advise anyone.

I agree with what the others said above about trying to have friends in real life as well as online or at least having a number of acquaintances.

I do hope that things start getting better for you very soon, Clouds_and_Sun!
I know that you have been in such a bad place for quite some time now. I know this place from last year and also the last few weeks.

Take care of yourself,

Shadow-world

Cloud_and_sun
I know the loneliness you feel, in the last few weeks i have been feeling it as well. You are not alone! We are all here for you, thus the reason this site exits. Loneliness is only momentary. At least that is what i keep telling myself.