[Mogeii]

This has eluded my throughout my entire mental health history. My Depression goes into full remission, and my anxiety gets leveled out well enough, then I have a bad day like today. No external forces causing a bad day, no medical illness that I can feel, just feeling moderately depressed. I have had 2 weeks of feeling GOOD. I say GOOD as in I was depression FREE, and my anxiety was completely tolerable and in my control. So my question to you other depression veterans: Do you ever just have a bad day or two and keep remission going? And if so, how do you make it JUST a bad day, and not the sign of relapse.

Quick other question too. Anyone have any experience with SSRI treatment where you get a quick honeymoon period, followed by some bad times, and then come out at the 6-8 week period as better? Just curious because I usually have 2 week honeymoon periods with meds than struggle for 2 weeks and quit/change dosage. Wondering if hanging in there for the full 6-8 weeks has really helped anyone.

[Mayflower7]

Hi Mogeii,
I have bad days, going though a very difficult time right now. Previously, I had odd days where my pain severe more than usual. That can make me pretty fed up. I try to do EVERYTHING I can to keep me doing some tasks.
Take care
Kate

[Mogeii]

Thanks for the reply Kate! Ya the "keep busy" philosophy is definitely a major part of it. For instance after posting I kept busy, and I felt better. My real white whale though is how to classify these times. Im the type of depressive person that needs to know why. If i go into a depressive episode, I have to know why. So my problem is when I have a bad day, I instantly go into why why why phase. All the answers I get upset me too. Keeping busy get me through the bad days, but I just can't let them be unexplained bad days haha. Maybe the simplest answer is most likely, and that would be the most optimistic view, since the simplest answer is everyone has bad days, and people with depression may have worse days than others. I hope that is the case, because that means nothing has changed chemically or anything that calls for major action. Anywho im just ranting. My sister's birthday tonight will probably take my mind off of it, but tomorrow Im sure ill brood all day about why most of today was so ******. And in turn the brooding will make tomorrow ******....Who invented Depression and why havent they been killed? haha.

[Leed]

I know what you mean about wanting an answer. But like so many people, I've been depressed since I was a kid. So i've given up on getting any answers.

I just blame it on the disease. That's what depression is - a disease, at least in MY book. I have a disease that goes into remission, like many other diseases. I take medications for it that TRIES to keep it in remission, but sometimes I relapse. Like other diseases, sometimes depression is stronger than the medications -- other times the medication takes over the disease and makes it "scurry" back into remission. So I just enjoy those days to the fullest and I don't obsess about when it might come back or project into the future cause it's not here yet.

I wish I had MORE control over the disease, but I do the best I CAN. That's all you can do. So try to enjoy your GOOD DAYS, and forget about the bad ones. They're gone and they can't hurt you anymore. God bless you Mogeii ~ you're in my prayers. Hugs, Lee

[Mogeii]

Very nice reply Lee. I appreciate it. Ya being a young guy I guess its just biologically imprinted on me to not accept the fact that i have a life-long illness. I guess the life long mission is to maximize the good days and minimize the bad. But still, that evil WHY always lingers haha.

[ba.ll.oo.n]

When this happens and suddenly in the string of good days comes one or several bad days, I just try to work and be at home and generally avoid anything that might upset me.

It's usually good to have a few books and nice simple chick flicks at the ready somewhere. Also, going for a run helps. When you actually make yourself get out of the building and make the thighs burn.

I don't try to analyze the slide downs too much and just sort of blanket myself when they come until they pass. For me, these lows come mostly in the evenings and the ADs have improved my sleeping by leagues so that I can sort of protect myself by going to sleep early as well. I hope these tips will be of any help to you.

And if you have a pet, cuddle cuddle cuddle.

Good luck on fighting it.

[Mogeii]

great tips balloon. Ya I really need to lean more on physical activity during the down days. As for cuddling the pets, sadly my doggy is at my parents house and cant come to my apartment. And my roommates cat is the worst cat ever lol. hes fat, lazy, hates being held, and pukes in my room only.