[rcrss5]

Well I went to my appointment today, in which I had to wait two month for. I thought I would at least feel a little better after taking to someone. Instead I spend time spending time filling out yes or no drug and alcohol questionaires. Then I request a male therapist and am told I will have to wait another month before I can see him. After that I was called in by a nurse practioner who was useless too, she kept tell me things will get better. She also informed that she would be changing my meds in the future, buy I have news for her, I will stay with my primary doctor in prescribing meds. They and converse with him about their suggestions. How am I going to survive a whole month without help. I will have to t ake advantage of my exhusband when he is here and decide if I will end my pain. I see no hope, all I can see is one long dark tunnel. You know I struggled with depression most of life and can never say I have been truly happy, my daughter told me that this weekend she said "mom you are never happy" This darkness although lightings at times is always painful, maybe it is time for me to go. I don't know I will try to stick with it a bit longer..thanks for listening

[Leed]

PLEASE CALL them back and TELL them you cannot wait another month -- tell them you are in CRISIS mode! Did you tell them you are thinking about suicide? You must be open and honest with them! They shouldn't have given you a nurse practitioner! You must call them! Or call another therapist and tell them it is IMPERATIVE that you be seen NOW as you are in CRISIS!!!

Please do this --- PLEASE?? I have been where you are and there ARE therapist who WILL get you in immediately! Don't give up -- you must fight these "voices" in your head that are telling you to give up! There is hope -- things always change! Nothing stays the same - ever.

It is NOT time for you to "go." God put you here for a reason. We care about you sweetie, and so does your family! Please make the call. You've been in my prayers, Rcrss5 - and will continue to be. You can message me anytime, ok? I DO understand. Hang on, but please call them, ok? God bless. ((((hugs)))) Lee

[rcrss5]

The nurse prac. told me to call 911 if I needed help, I live in a small town I am sure they have better things to do then deal with a depressed person, especially since there is probable on cop on duty.

[rcrss5]

I am taking all my pain out on my children I am constantly yelling and nagging at them. All I want to do is sleep.

[Leed]

If you are in CRISIS, then CALL 911 !! They can admit you for severe depression!!! If you have a child old enough to care for the others, or a neighbor who can watch the kids, go for it! YOU are important too!

I'm really worried about you sweetie. And I'm here if you want to talk. Believe me, I've been there. You've got to get some help. If there's someone who can watch the kids, then call them. TELL THEM EVERYTHING. Tell them exactly how you feel, so they WILL admit you! You need HELP! Please do it, ok? You are NOT over-reacting. Hugs, Lee