[regretful]

What is it about depression that gets you to new lows seemingly every day? I'm trapped in a business that I cannot get a break from. When I want to take a break, something happens that I can't. Yes, it's situational depression, but this "situation" has been going on for 8 *$%*! years. So I'm stuck with trying to figure out what happened first - business ownership leading to depression or depression hampering my feelings about business ownership...

This really stinks. I wish that I could report something better one of these days.

[Rohag]

Hello, Regretful!

Originally Posted by regretful

...what happened first - business ownership leading to depression or depression hampering my feelings about business ownership...

Hypothetically, were you able to determine what came first, how would that help you? (I ask that as a real and not a rhetorical question.) Is it possible the depression has gone on so long that it has now acquired a life of its own independent of the situation?

Regardless, I hope you can find ways to mitigate the worst effects of the illness.

[pccogni]

Have you tried to change certain patterns to what is the root of the problem, such as a change of routine or method in the way you go about your day to day work?

[di meliora]

Keep that thought, regretful. As long as there is life, there is hope and opportunity. Good luck.

[regretful]

Hello Rohag,

I guess if I was able to determine what came first that I would have a better idea on where to start with addressing this depression. You know, kind of like knowing the terrain before you try to climb a mountain...choosing the best route...

I don't think the depression is independent of the situation...I was looking at photographs last night of my family and me in the years before I started business; and then pictures of me since then...I was happy, never in therapy, never on meds, etc. before I started this business. You know, I sincerely thank you for your question because as I am typing out these thoughts it is becoming more clear to me that working my way out of this business will be the best remedy for my depression...

And thank you for the hope. I will take all the hope that I can get...

[Shadow-world]

Sorry you're feeling trapped in your current work situation. I am in a similar position and, like you, am trying to find a new post to get my life and some equanimity (not that I'm usually very good at it) back.

I wish you to find a way out of your business situation soon and hope that you'll feel better in turn.

[regretful]

Originally Posted by Shadow-world

Sorry you're feeling trapped in your current work situation. I am in a similar position and, like you, am trying to find a new post to get my life and some equanimity (not that I'm usually very good at it) back.

I wish you to find a way out of your business situation soon and hope that you'll feel better in turn.

Thanks Shadow-world...It's not the finding a new position that is the difficult part. I own a small business and I find absolutely no satisfaction in it whatsoever, and I cannot leave this to my wife to run on her own. We tried that...I got called in for everything...now I'm stuck here...

I do hope that you'll feel better soon too. Thanks for the encouragement

[misscath007]

Hope things will improve for you Regretful. It feels like it's neverending at times, I know. Do u have anyone else u can call in to help with your business? Sending huggs, pretty much all I have right now.

[regretful]

Originally Posted by misscath007

Hope things will improve for you Regretful. It feels like it's neverending at times, I know. Do u have anyone else u can call in to help with your business? Sending huggs, pretty much all I have right now.

I certainly wish I had someone to help me with this business. It's my wife and I that run it; we certainly could use more help. But I'm paralyzed by the responsibilities that keep on piling up on me. It's just too much for me to handle, and I am only sitting here wishing for a way out...

Thanks for the question, and thanks for the huggs...I need them now more than ever...I know it feels never ending, but I won't give up...

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hello, Regretful!

Hypothetically, were you able to determine what came first, how would that help you? (I ask that as a real and not a rhetorical question.) Is it possible the depression has gone on so long that it has now acquired a life of its own independent of the situation?

Regardless, I hope you can find ways to mitigate the worst effects of the illness.

I'm so glad you said this!!! It is exactly what I said yesterday....or recently, anyway. Brain chemicals change over time, and just because there is a situation going on that is at the root of (some of?) the depression, it does NOT mean that it is the ONLY cause of the depression! Lots of exclamation marks....I feel really passionate about this concept!

[regretful]

Indeed whimsygirl,

I think I need to start some medication to get my brain chemistry right. I am hopeful that if I do that again (and right now that is a big IF) that I won't gain 60 pounds from the meds or develop tinnitus...

[whimsygirl]

You might have mentioned this before, but are you off all meds now? I've been off everything for quite a while, as none of the ones I have been on really helped, and with no health insurance I've had no one to prescribe new ones....but lately I've been thinking that I need to find a way. Ugh, it's all so frustrating, huh?

[regretful]

Originally Posted by whimsygirl

You might have mentioned this before, but are you off all meds now? I've been off everything for quite a while, as none of the ones I have been on really helped, and with no health insurance I've had no one to prescribe new ones....but lately I've been thinking that I need to find a way. Ugh, it's all so frustrating, huh?

No meds at all...I have some Lexapro at home from when it didn't work...thought about starting it again..didn't. Lexapro really helped me a year ago (other than putting on 60 pounds). And as far as insurance goes, I have a policy, but it only covers catastrophic problems. My deductible is in the $6,000-$10,000 range, and that is after paying about $7500 per year for the policy...and no Rx coverage...so when I do get meds and/or therapy, it is largely out of pocket. Frustrating is the word for it...

[misscath007]

Can you apply for prescription assistance through the pharm companies? I'm not sure how low of an income you have to be, but I was on it before i had insurance. It sounds like you really need to be on some sort of med. It sucks that these meds are so expensive esp since many folks have no(or crappy) insurance coverage.

Hope you feel better.