How to find my happiness???

Well it seems I cant be alone and happy at the same time. I was just on a trip with my family for a week and had a lot of fun, but as soon as I got home I have been feeling pretty... not upsett but not happy. Im just kind of here, even though I keep in touch with friends. I am just not happy when I am alone. But I want to be happy, content with myself alone without people. I dont want to have to depend on people for my happiness. Is that okay? How do I got that? Happiness without needing someone else. Is that something I have to figure out myself again? I just want to be happy with myself, I know I need people but can I be happy alone? Is that okay? But how can I do it? I cant figure it out Ive tried but I felt myself being fake. I dont want to lie to myself! How?

You seem half way there! The answer is in your questions. What, I am referring to, is knowing who you are and self acceptance. It takes time, but it is very possible. Your morality is leading you in the right direction. Listen to it.

Depending on people to a certain degree is fine. We all need friends and company. When a person becomes completely dependent on others for their happiness, it is unhealthy.

Your concerns are completely normal.

Sorry. I wish, I had an easier answer, for you. Perhaps, someone else does?