[AngelWolf3]

It has been 6 1/2 months since my brain injury during training at a police academy. I have not able to do any of my usual coping things, like martial arts, running, or hiking. I can't even take a walk outside because it is too flippin hot and humid where I live, and exertion is still too much for me. I basically work all day, and then go home and sleep because I am too tired to do anything else.

Or if I have the kids, I have to have us watch tv because even though I sit all day at work, I don't have the energy to do anything else. I feel so alone, and so helpless, which I am not used to feeling helpless because I usually am very empowered and such. And believe me I have tried to exercise, but it sets me back a day or so in recovery. Even Yoga messes me up. How can something that involves being still mess me up?

This isn't my first bout with depression, I was hospitalized when I was 18, but I got through it. And now, I am seeing a T, but it has been a while since I have seen her. (I have an appt Wed) I just need to vent. I know my issues are totally not even close to a lot of the people's here, but I really really need to talk. I feel like crying I am so alone.

None of my friends or family understands, and with the brain injury thing, I look okay on the outside, but my skills/function are really impaired, so my parents/friends think I should be fine, and are probably sick of hearing about it anyway. I just don't know what to do, and I guess I will just have to be thankful I have the ability to go to work and walk, and I am really not horribly mentally impaired, its just a complete change of lifestyle and it is REALLY getting to me.

*sigh* thank you for reading. If you made it through this post, and this self-pity party, I thank you.

[pegasus]

My heart goes out to you (((((( Wolfin3 ))))))

[regretful]

I read it and made it through. A brain injury is truly a life-changing event, but you know that better than anyone. I'm glad that you had a chance to vent here. Your difficulties and problems are just as real as anyone else's. I do hope that your therapy appointments help; best wishes to you.

[Leed]

Bless your heart. I hear ya. It's SO difficult when no one understands. You try to explain it to them, but they just don't get it. They either don't WANT to get it or they can't. And that's' hard -- it hurts, and it's frustrating.

It would be easier if they could SEE it, but they can't. I'm disabled with a spinal problem, and like you, you can't SEE it -- it's chronic pain and it's horrible. I have pain 24/7 and no one understands cause you can't SEE it. So i understand what you're dealing with.

I know there are certain meds you CANNOT take with a brain injury, but I was wondering if an antidepressant would help you. Have you talked to your doctor about it? Perhaps it would make you feel better. Why not mention it to him and see if you're allowed to have it.

I hope you start feeling better soon. My heart goes out to you. God bless and please take care! Hugs, Lee

[AngelWolf3]

Thank you all for your wonderful posts! I am glad you guys didn't think I was being stupid!

[Mom of Jr Sooner]

People don't understand how strong and debilitating depression can be. Keep fighting and know you are blessed.

The greatest injuries are the ones no one can see.