Lost in my own life

My name is Rachel and I'm 16 years old. The first 2 trimesters of this year I got all A's, I was happy, hyper, on top of the world, productive. Then around March 24th I started crashing into this weird state of mind, obsession over certain things that has led into this horrible depression type ordeal. I'm not always depressed and sometimes I will try to trick myself into thinking I'm not depressed or avoid it, but then I ask myself.. am I tricking myself into depression? Some days I'll be on top of the world, motivated, feel special to an extent but then I will crash into this sense of hopelessness and excessive doubt and worries about the future. I can never sleep and never really want to sleep. My mind is ALWAYS racing, it never shuts up and the harder I try to the stop thinking the more I think. I had sex for the first time a couple days ago and thought it made everything better... the obsession, the racing thoughts, the hyper active crap of craziness I feel but no... now i just feel even worse. I was completely fine 2 weeks ago and was happy as can be and I'm sick of whatever is going on I need it to stop it is so difficult to live like this and I feel its out of my ability to control. What is wrong with me PLEASE HELP ME !!!!! PLEASE!!!! My mind won't ever shut up I just want peace. I'm on a roller coaster that is getting bigger and bigger every week!!!!

Honey, is it possible to speak to your parents about this? You really need to see a therapist. It's possible you have a mental condition that CAN be controlled. But you NEED to see a therapist for him to diagnose you. That's the ONLY way to get this under control. Your Mom might want you to see your medical doctor first, but he will just send you on to a therapist or psychiatrist. Whatever it takes doesn't mater, as long as you get some attention!!

Talk to your mom or dad. Tell them you need some help, and that it's NOT just some "teenage thing." Make sure they understand that it's something that has been going on too long, and it's affecting everything you do. Don't let them blow it off, ok?

I wish you the very best. Take care honey, and God bless. Let us know how you come out. Hugs, Lee

I second Leed. PLEASE try to get help from a professional. This is seriously impacting your life and your parents should know.