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Hi! I'm new to this and hope that this will hellp me. I've lived with severe depression since I was a child. Mainly due to abuse. The last 13 yrs. have been unbearable. I hate myself. I feel I should be able to control the depression. I have no friends. I'm a bore to be around. I lay around most of the time. It's a real problem to push myself to get up and do anything. I feel so lazy and unproductive. Sort of worthless. I had one bipolar/schizo affective episode and so afraid it will happen again.
I go to a psyciatrist and on meds,but they don't seem to help at all. They tell me I need to get out of the house and be with people. I have no place to go plus it takes all my energy to get out of the house. I don't like being alone but at the same time I don't feel like gettinng out of the house.
I feel so alone in this. People just don't get it and don't want to hear about it.

(((LostLamb)))

I've always had major depression and self-hate myself. It's a big struggle! The friends or colleagues that I made in school are all long-gone now. Anyway, I can relate.

It doesn't sound as though you're seeing a therapist. Is that right? For me, therapy is essential! I did discover that early in life. That's one plus in my childhood. I'd definitely recommend getting in to see a T once a week, and ask if there are support groups in your area. You can check out this site for information. http://www.nami.org

Support groups can help a lot too! I've been in a couple of groups in my life so far. Some people stay in support groups their entire lives, which is a possibility. Others come and go when they need it (the majority). And a few avoid support groups as much as possible (or entirely).

Support groups do want to hear what's going on ~ the trick is that sometimes people go off in a tangent about their problems. Group leaders try not to let that occur often, but it does happen occasionally. That can be pretty frustrating when you've got a lot on your mind that you were hoping to talk about, and this person took up almost the entire amount of group time that session. I've been there too.

I hope that things improve for us both very soon! Oh, and to PC!

Hello & Welcome, Lost Lamb!
That's easy advice to give; not so easy for someone suffering with depression to apply. Sometimes I wonder if even mental health professionals appreciate that...

Again, Welcome!

Welcome Lost Lamb. i hope that you find what you need here, PC definitely has a lot of people with great advice and great hugs... and as far as your quote up there...
Totally not alone! I have the same issue; it's like, I don't want to be alone, but it feels so not worth it to go anywhere, and i don't even feel like being with anybody. (Doesn't make sense, does it.)
Welcome again. Keep us updated.

Thanks for the friendly comments. We're all in the same spot. Got to be positive and really mean it.