Ughh

Why does it keep raining down on me without stopping?? . I cannot believe it (well, considering my immunity must be pretty low at the mo with all that has happened) but now I have the flu...and no voice. I have been struggling just to do the basics with no2 daughter over the past few weeks, now I can hardly even do that. She wants me, she wants attention, and I can barely give her either. I was so tired this morning I had to put her to bed so I could go to bed...That is so unfair on her. (She is only 21mths old). I have worked so hard over the past 13mths to build up a bond between the 2 of us, and now I feel almost nothing. I love her, and she has a strong bond with me but I just can't reciprocate it. I feel more like her nanny (and a very bad one at that) than her mum. I know that to help myself out of this black hole that is getting ever deeper I have to help myself but I have no energy, no desire even to do anything. I get up every mornig to her, and do what I have to but it is because I HAVE to not because I want to. She is missing out. And then on top of all that of course I am sick . Moan, moan, moan, moan, moan...

(((((((((((((Irish))))))))))))))

Take care of yourself. It won't do any harm to your daughter to sleep a bit more, but is there anyone you can get to take care of her when you're sick?

You need a vacation from all this stress and a break to get over the "ickies". Much love to you and take care of yourself first!

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

Please try to hang in there until YOU can find or see a way out..... for I almost checked out right before the RAINBOW came shinning thru, after a 10 year storm.

LoVe,
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