[Twisted_Soul]

I have stayed away for the past day and a half. I wanted to sort out my thoughts, feelings, etc.
In short, the past 36 hours have been a huge learning experience.
Some people will never "get me"....and guess what, I will not "get" some people. Not because I don't try or they don't try. Mental illnesses are not only frustrating to the individual trying to cope, but never appear quite the same way in 2 people. Kind of like a snowflake. No 2 are alike.
Ok...so here is my point:
I have issues. If I didn't I would not have come to PC trying to field out support. I do not always think clearly. I sometimes get pretty angry right off the bat. It isn't that I mean to, or that I want to be bullheaded or go against any support or encouragement being offered to me.
It's just that, I suffer from mood swings, from feelings of abandonment. I have a difficult time expressing anything other then anger.
And, all I can say is I am working on things despite the belief perhaps by some that I am not. But that is okay for them to believe that, or to see it differently then it really is. I know where I have come from. I know how far I have traveled to be where I am today.
So, the lesson>>> We all have issues that make us deal with things differently. We all do not see the same things.
Whether I have true or imagined abandonment in my life, it is how I feel at the time. I wish I didn't have those issues.
I want us to each look within and see the beauty of ourselves because we are all different. And, I am going to take the past few days here and dwell on hoping we can commune with each other in the best way possible. Forgoing what we think about how a person should act, speak, feel, think etc...but just love and encourage and "be here."
I will try this. Will you?

dear twisted soul,

those are very profound words.

I beleive in you!

And everyone gets upset, as long as we can look back and grow from it i think that is wonderful.

[LMo]

well-said, both of you!

[Fuzzybear]

I third that! Excellent thoughts and posts!

[Fuzzybear]

PS As you know Susan I also have abandonment issues and I have done some stupid things at times because of them.

I really feel I no longer "act out" because of those however (except perhaps in the safety of therapy) so there is hope for everyone!

For me, it took a very hurtful experience (and being judged harshly) to look closer at my "patterns" in my interpersonal relationships. I know you have been hurt too and I hope your learning curve is smoother from now on!

Take care,

Fuzzy

edited to add.... I am not currently in therapy as you will probably know if you read my posts. What I meant is that I no longer act out in my friendships like I sometimes used to, even if badly triggered. I might do in therapy though if I trusted the therapist enough.... not sure

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

((TS)) Awesome post....I think it takes a big person to say what you did....I cannot judge who is better or making any progress I am not a T but I think what you and I have shared in PM's and on the site shows great insight on your part..I think and this is just me....people need to REALLY keep in mind that they need to handle everyone in here like spun glass because they DO NOT know what and if and when of one anothers illness.

[LILITH]

{{{{{{TS}}}}} I am here for you! Forever and always....Unless a person walks in your shoes that can't for sure know how YOU feel. We are simular but different. Peace to you.....I am glad you came back
Lilith

Important thoughts!

Hit the hammer on the nail!



My shoes are mine and yours are yours...
We all tend to think that we sometimes know how others are really feeling and what they are going through... but the truth is- we can never ever really know.

[Twisted_Soul]

It is refreshing, don't you think, to step back and look at the whole picture of how unique we are!

[cherybery]

((((((((((((((((TS))))))))))))))))))))
Absolutely agree! We own what we are going through. It is so personal to each of us since our experiences are so personal.
HUGS
Cher

[Fuzzybear]

totally agreed also!!!!!!!

[Twisted_Soul]

It shows people can unite among so hurtful, sad, and painful experiences.

To all who have replied...even if you dont "get me" I am happy that you "got" the message!!!

[Twisted_Soul]

Ahh, PC seems so calm and supportive....
Let's keep being the Rock for one another!
Love and Peace!!

[cherybery]

(((((((((((((((Twisted Soul)))))))))))))))))
I agree!!!!!

[nothemama8]

Adding my 2 cents " We are Family" the perfect song for all of us
Angie

[Twisted_Soul]

I feel like after reading a few posts in GENERAL and SOCIAL that we again need to be reminded of how very different we all are, even if dx with the same illness.
WE all come from different ways of life. And that does throw a part into how we think, do, etc.

Seems personal attacks still are being posted even though KD has asked people to take care of such issues with other members with pming a mod or the person you feel you are having an issue with.

We never will always agree with each other. But, we need to count to 10 >>>> sometimes maybe count to 100 before we begin posting or replying so that we can do so without feeling attacked or attacking.

I am trying this technique because about a week ago I had been crucified in a post that no longer exists because it was deleted. And, it made me realize we all need love and support.

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

((((((( TS ))))))))) I so agree ....I love how you word things lately..I am off to eat but will catch you after 7 ofr 8 pm?

[Fuzzybear]

ya i know what you mean about being "crushed" by posts/flames in email ggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr (not at you)

oops i didnt read your post correctly, well near enuf i think

excellent idea at times, counting to 10 or 100 before posting ANYTHING

[Twisted_Soul]

((((Sleeps & Fuzzy)))))
See, we are all works in progress.
For me, I learn slow, but I do learn!