Ready to give up on everything!!

I am so fed up right now, I give up! I have been cutting for the last few days because I don't know what else to do. With every cut I get relief but then sink deeper into my depression, I just wish that I had the nerve to make that last big cut...

My mom was from Sulfur, KY in Henry County--you know it?

Sorry it's such a bad night. Is there anything behind this depression--some situation? You talk to anybody about cutting?

Do you have a therapist? We need to get you away from this cutting thing. If you are serious about making the "big cut," then please call for help! We care.

I'm not familiar with that part of Kentucky Roadie but I have heard of it, most of my family ties are to Central Ky. There is a HUGE situation behind my most recent bout of depression, I posted about it a day or so ago, and I really do believe that this may be the one that buries me under forever.

I do have a therapist but I'm not quite sure if she quite sees the depths of my torment and pain. I am on 25mg Zoloft right now and I'm pretty sure that it needs to be increased or maybe a different med altogether, Idk. Right now my thoughts are racing all over the place, I just wish that my mind would stop even if only for a minute or so. I feel like I am nothing but a pain, an inconvenience, to everyone around me. I just want it to stop!

Just as everyone has said you really need to get a hold of your pdoc ASAP. The racing thoughts could mean something other than depression. If your only being treated for depression and thats not the issue you will struggle more with the deep emtional issues you may have going on which is adding to your cutting, You do have strength because it took stregth to write on here. so keep digging deep and you will find what you need to beat this.