[doggiedo]

Just having a down evening. I had such a productive day at work and I'm a tally ahead of the game a little. Then I come home as throw laundry in and make dinner and it all goes to poo! I'm in a horrible mood. I want to cry and I don't know why. If I knew why I'd try and fight it. Idk what to do. Just go with it or fight it?

i've always found nights to be the worst. good day or not, when the evenings come you soon slip.

hope you have an okay night and feel better tomorrow

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by doggiedo

Just having a down evening. I had such a productive day at work and I'm a tally ahead of the game a little. Then I come home as throw laundry in and make dinner and it all goes to poo! I'm in a horrible mood. I want to cry and I don't know why. If I knew why I'd try and fight it. Idk what to do. Just go with it or fight it?

Hi doggie....I'm so sorry that you're hurting. Isn't it just the hardest thing to deal with when the crash comes, and you can't really know why. I know it is for me, anyway. In fact, it just happened to me late yesterday, and while I could feel myself being pulled towards the dark hole, I felt powerless to fight the fall. For me I've always felt that's the most difficult thing about depression, how to fight something when you don't know the reasons for it. So hard. I hope you find some comfort soon. I'll be thinking of you. Please try and take care of yourself as best you can...... ps Good luck if your choice is to try and fight the demon.

[Rohag]

Doggiedo!

Originally Posted by doggiedo

I had such a productive day... Then I come home...and it all goes to poo!

Has this happened before? Is this a pattern?

May you have truly restful sleep tonight.

[doggiedo]

I know that's the important question... what causes it? That's the unanswered one. I just don't know. Maybe it's chemical. Idk about a pattern Rohag...I kinda thought for a millisecond that I might be bipolar, since I have such drastic mood swings. But they are just for a few days an not months long, in terms of mood change. That's how it feels tho.

I pulled myself up tonight and walked the dogs for 30 min and then did the elliptical for 30min. More than I have done in months and I am really proud of myself. Sometimes i guess it's good to give him and just go into the black hole, as u said Whimsy, but I guess for me today I fought it an I am glad I did.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by doggiedo

I know that's the important question... what causes it? That's the unanswered one. I just don't know. Maybe it's chemical. Idk about a pattern Rohag...I kinda thought for a millisecond that I might be bipolar, since I have such drastic mood swings. But they are just for a few days an not months long, in terms of mood change. That's how it feels tho.

I pulled myself up tonight and walked the dogs for 30 min and then did the elliptical for 30min. More than I have done in months and I am really proud of myself. Sometimes i guess it's good to give him and just go into the black hole, as u said Whimsy, but I guess for me today I fought it an I am glad I did.

That's so good to hear.....You should be proud of yourself! It's wonderful when something works.....

[missbelle]

[Big Mama]

Hi doggie, You are not alone in this. Maybe it is something in the atmosphere. The moon, the barometric pressure, that time of the month? Hormones. What ever it is it is affecting me to. I cry for no reason and my eyes get watery and I think "What the H*** is wrong w/ me" I to don't know weather to fight it or go with it. Since going with it is not my nature I fight it so then it can drag out for a few day and I can feel like crap. Sometimes though when everyone is asleep I get in the car and drive and cry for real. Or I'll just set in the car, blast a little Metallica , and zone out for an hour. It feels great. You should give it a try.

Hi Doggiedo... I can tell you from experience that my days would be good, then as evening approached I would just become exhausted. I thought it was just normal. Married with kids, work hard all day, repeat, repeat... At 43 I was diagnosed with ADD and my life after diagnosis is Much better. My brain never had enough dopamine, it was great early in the day but just did not have the staying power.

You may have discovered a key, though... Exercise causes your brain to produce dopamine which can really improve your mood

My life after Adderall treatment is greatly improved. I can tell a huge difference when I exercise too.

[doggiedo]

YYZ - Interesting! I wonder what made them think to test you for ADD after so long???

Big Mama - sorry you are going through the same thing. Maybe it's a full moon? Blasting music and crying in the car- I like the music part but I think the crying would get in the way of me driving...lol. I like to do that in the shower - good place to cry.

Thanks MissBelle and Whimsey!

Originally Posted by doggiedo

YYZ - Interesting! I wonder what made them think to test you for ADD after so long???

I was in a real crisis, both at home and at work, and I was having terrible anxiety attacks. I finally called my GP and he had me take a couple of quick quizes. One showed a bit high on the BP score. He sent me to a psych (I'd never been to one) and he DX's ADD in about 10 minutes

[Big Mama]

Sorry yall. No no no do NOT drive, jam, and cry. Bad idea. Park, jam and cry. Saves gas to. Cheaper then driving around. I did say drive and cry. I suppose that might not be so wise. I'm not the emotional type and need to get away and cry. The radio seems to do it for me. I will certainly think more about getting behind the wheel in that state of mind. Thank you for giving me opportunity for clarity and giving me reason to thank twice about what I do. I guess being in that tough position it is often hard to see the whole picture.

ADD is a diagnosis I did not expect. I have ADD. I was like you, I got that answer awfully quick. But I agree in my case that I have ADD. I wander What ADD has to do with emotions.

ADD has A Lot of an effect on emotions due to the low self esteem that develops over your lifetime. People saying you need to try harder, try to remember (Like someone forgets on purpose, geez...) Inconsistant results at school, work and home. Each little disappointment takes a toll.

The good news is 90% of people with ADD respond well to the meds. I knew within 30 minutes of my first Adderall that I had walked out of the fog. I felt good and I feel good 3+ years later. It is amazing not to feel exhausted by mid afternoon and function.

I recommend reading the "Driven to Distraction" and "Delivered from Distraction" books. You will be amazed.

[Big Mama]

Thank you so much. That answers a million questions. That is so me.