[wpony]

I had to go shopping for my wife tonight to where and me and mom went all the times had a few checkers come up and tell me how sorry they were all I did was mKE A MAD DASH TO THE BATHROOM THERE AND SAT FOR A HR CRYING BEFORE COULD JOIN THE SHOPPING PEOPLE AGAIN BUT GOT WHAT i NEED FAST AND GOT OUT OF THE STORE AND CRYED IN THE VAn,had 1 old friend walk by and said pull the boot straps up amd get over it I felt like running him over not that I ever would but it sure bringsback all the old feelings of very deep depression and me feeling worthless and wishing I had never been born so every body would be happier with out me. I just wish i was dead tonight but dont worry no actions now just a putrid hatred of my empty meanless life that needs to end George

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by wpony

...had 1 old friend walk by and said pull the boot straps up amd get over it

Classic.

Go ahead and grieve, George.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by wpony

I had to go shopping for my wife tonight to where and me and mom went all the times had a few checkers come up and tell me how sorry they were all I did was mKE A MAD DASH TO THE BATHROOM THERE AND SAT FOR A HR CRYING BEFORE COULD JOIN THE SHOPPING PEOPLE AGAIN BUT GOT WHAT i NEED FAST AND GOT OUT OF THE STORE AND CRYED IN THE VAn,had 1 old friend walk by and said pull the boot straps up amd get over it I felt like running him over not that I ever would but it sure bringsback all the old feelings of very deep depression and me feeling worthless and wishing I had never been born so every body would be happier with out me. I just wish i was dead tonight but dont worry no actions now just a putrid hatred of my empty meanless life that needs to end George

So sorry you're hurting badly George. Are you in therapy and ~or seeing a medical doctor? I hope so. About crying in the bathroom....I usually manage to make it to my car, but occasionally need to sit and cry for a few minutes before driving. As for your friend and his comment, bottom line....he's just being an insensitive jerk. Perhaps he means well and is just at a loss for anything more supportive to say, but then he should just say something like "I'm really sorry you're feeling bad" and leave it at that. The sad thing is that, because you're suffering from major depression, and are not able to see clearly, sounds like you're turing that inward on yourself and seeing it as "one more bad thing" in your life. (Been there a million times myself.) I am so sorry you're going through all this. Whether you can see it or not, your life matters, and you just have an illness.....as most of us here do. You do not deserve to have all this pain, and I pray that some comfort comes your way as soon as possible. Warm wishes and hugs.....