[tallwaters]

I have been so ill with depression anxiety here lately. I have been scared i am just going to die here all alone. I felt like no one would hear me or care anyway. Im just so tired. Anyone ever feel this way?

[optimize990h]

I had similar feelings before. I know here at PC they care. See a therapist if you don't have one. You are not alone.

[shezbut]

tallwaters

Yes, I have felt that way before. It isn't ever easy or fun. Each time it hits, I could swear that my feelings are accurate ~ as I become absolutely convinced that I don't mean squat to a single person on Earth.

My journals, which have recorded the positive times, counter-act my beliefs and make me confused. I do see a T regularly, who monitors the depth of my depression every couple of months. It varies between moderate/severe - severe. In those very dark times, I've needed to go into the hospital for more intensive treatment. It helps get me through again.

Reach out for help. It's great that you've shared your thoughts and feelings here, but now you should see a professional to talk about it more deeply. (((hugs)))

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( tallwaters )))))))))))))))

[alone in the world]

you are not alone in your pain and sharing it with a good supporter will give it some relief. keep posting and getting support here it does help.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by tallwaters

I have been so ill with depression anxiety here lately. I have been scared i am just going to die here all alone. I felt like no one would hear me or care anyway. Im just so tired. Anyone ever feel this way?

Hi tallwaters.....So sorry about the way you're hurting. Yes, I have felt that way also, many times. As the others have said, I hope you will talk to someone....a doctor and ~or therapist, if you aren't already. And in the meantime we'll continue to be here for you, and each other. Now and in the future. Sending warm wishes and hugs.....

have felt worse that that
I'm on my 3rd differant depression medicine
and i have to see the doc this week
for prbly more...

hang in there..

[Emptty]

We hear you tallwaters and we feel for you.

I have had the exhausting days where I could not leave my bed, where I was too exhausted to think, and where I knew if I stayed in all week no one would notice me missing, although I would get a call from my workplace(not like they would be concerned).

Just take it day by day.. or if you have to, moment by moment. Remember to breathe, in these trying times breathing is important. People were made with the ability to fight, the ability to stand tall when the wind is blowing. You may be sick but this sickness will pass and the skies will open wide to let the light shine down upon you. Wait for that day and be strong. You have my support because I understand your pain.

Be well.

[Emptty]

And also, you are not alone and we are here to hear you.

Write more, write more on this thread or write a new thread - hell, message me and write your heart out if you want!
I would be open to hear it all, it is so helpful to pour the thoughts and emotions out someplace.