It's so discouraging. I know meds aren't a cure-all. I just was starting to feel so much better and then BOOM out of nowhere I find myself fighting all these terrible thoughts and feelings. I don't even know why I'm sad. And I'm starting to get angry...ANGRY with the 'normal people' who just make it look so D**N easy to be happy, to enjoy life. I always hate when someone asks me what my hobbies and interests are and I say I don't know I don't have any. They'll say why sure you do, what do you enjoy doing....and out of shame and embarrassment I make up something....but truthfully I have never had an honest answer to that question. I don't enjoy anything.

Everything just feels like a burden, a chore. I hate to admit it but the only thing I have ever enjoyed in my life is sex, and now meds have taken that away too

I just wish it wasn't such a struggle to live!

[whimsygirl]

Hi Butterfly.....I'm so sorry you're going through all that, and I get it, because I'm having a particularly bad day too. Not that any have been fantastic lately, but for whatever reason some just feel more terrible than others. Sending good thoughts, and I hope somehow, some way, you feel a bit of comfort in days to come.....

[Emptty]

If your meds are not working you need to speak to your psychiatrist. It is important to monitor the way you feel when you're taking medication(sometimes they can make you more depressed)

I suffer from depression but am not on any meds. I understand your pain and feel for you. Living is a struggle but life does go on and it does get better. It always gets better, and if you know what it's like to be terribly depressed you will appreciate when you wake up one day feeling real, alive, and happy.

Breathe easy, try to relax and know that you are welcome to vent here any time. You have my support!

Originally Posted by Emptty

If your meds are not working you need to speak to your psychiatrist. It is important to monitor the way you feel when you're taking medication(sometimes they can make you more depressed)

I suffer from depression but am not on any meds. I understand your pain and feel for you. Living is a struggle but life does go on and it does get better. It always gets better, and if you know what it's like to be terribly depressed you will appreciate when you wake up one day feeling real, alive, and happy.

Breathe easy, try to relax and know that you are welcome to vent here any time. You have my support!

Thanks so much for your encouragement. I've been on this med now for a month and I've felt relatively good, even great occasionally. But today I just bombed for no apparent reason. Balled up in a crying fit. I'm already starting to feel better but it's just so discouraging to keep trying and medicating and still having 'bad days' regardless.