[azirongrl]

I have been medicated in some way (Wellbutrin, then Effexor, then Zoloft, currently Celexa) for over a decade now. Have dealt with feelings of unworthiness, sadness, etc. all my life.

I regularly feel as though I am not worth living for or loving, despite my amazing life. I have a great husband, a loving and supportive family, a great job that I love, and truly no complaints... yet I am regularly, overwhelmingly SAD... all I want to do is sleep or cry.

Thoughts? Ideas? Advice?

[junkDNA]

your core beliefs about yourself and this world are negatively affecting you presently

[brokenandalone1234]

Sometimes it helps me to stop and think what I have to live for. I have an ex-fiance who still loves me to death and we are talking about getting back together, his parents love me to death, I have a little sister who would die if something happened to me, I have grandparents who have always been there for me,I have friends who would miss me if I was gone, and I some great leaders of my groups who would be upset if I was to take my life. When you feel that way stop and think about what you have to live for that may help. Sorry I couldn't give better advice just speaking from experience on what has helped me.

[jelly-bean]

Your problem may not be with your life now, but maybe it is something in the past that needs to be recognized. Have you seen a therapist yet? I strongly recommend it.

[bharani1008]

Do the meds help? I have had great success with them. I feel that if you've been like this so long (and I have been also), and the circumstances of your life are good then it's a chemical imbalance and needs correcting----like diabetes. It helps me to think like this. It becomes less of a statement about who I am than the fact that I have a disease.
I hope you find peace

Originally Posted by azirongrl

I have been medicated in some way (Wellbutrin, then Effexor, then Zoloft, currently Celexa) for over a decade now. Have dealt with feelings of unworthiness, sadness, etc. all my life.

I regularly feel as though I am not worth living for or loving, despite my amazing life. I have a great husband, a loving and supportive family, a great job that I love, and truly no complaints... yet I am regularly, overwhelmingly SAD... all I want to do is sleep or cry.

Thoughts? Ideas? Advice?

pleasantness is relative dumbfounding .

I have an incredible brain....it's all I have got and I am overwhelmingly primed to destroy it.

...it's like a driving force otherwise directed and sending me sideways oblique?....and thats only slightly sad...because guilt will complete the scene.....infiltrate annihilate and enslave me.

sadness as you describe is undefined!

attempting to 'attach' it to the innocent things around me will only make me more confused....

attempting to 'attach' depression to the beautiful things around you will only enable it to overwhelm....
that you have love and comfort ...best to share and express and not feel bad doing so

and you have done this here

depression has a mind of it's own and the 'mind' is a powerful thing

....there is a reason...there must be one or a few.....

depression is very personal...

just don't give up...

[onlytime]

I can relate to feeling really depressed despite having a great life. Having good things in your life doesn't make it "wrong" for you to be depressed though.

Maybe it's time for a med adjustment? Also, are you seeing a therapist?

Hang in there!

[Leed]

It sounds to me like your meds have stopped working. After a time, we become "accustomed" to them and we either must have an increase in dosage or we need to change the medication altogether. This has happened to me many times because I've been on meds for almost 40 years!

Talk to your doctor, and tell him that the sadness is returning and you don't feel good. Tell him the meds aren't working and ask him what he thinks should be done. Let HIM make the decision. It's best not to TELL him But if he won't make a decision, THEN you might have to suggest changing or increasing the dose.

Best of luck and God bless! Hugs, Lee