I hate myself and I'm not exactly sure of what to say

I don't like myself at all. I feel sad about myself all the time. It's like I should be feeling sorry for myself. I don't have anyone to talk to because I dont want anyone in my life to know how I feel. I'm ashamed of myself and what I've done. I hate the fact that I cut myself. And I never want anyone to find out. I just thought I would sign up for this so I would have somewhere to say what I'm feeling. I'm hoping this will make me feel better.

Welcome yqwjksl

Welcome, and thanks for choosing to post. Hope you'll continue to do so whenever you want ~need to. Are you under the care of a doctor and ~or therapist? The things you mention (most definitely including the cutting), require professional help. The first step in dealing with mood disorders....depression, etc....is to get as accurate a diagnosis as possible for what's going on with you. While so many of us will be here to read your posts, I'm afraid that is in no way a substitute for talking to people who are equipped to figure out what's going on and form a treatment plan. If you do not have a doctor who you can talk to, and need any suggestions please feel free to send me a message. Warm wishes ....

Have you made a person or many more smile in your life? Assuming that the answer will be yes, then you have no reason to hate yourself, because you really have made a difference for the better then. Hope you feel better soon!

Hey I know how you feel. I just signed up hoping it would make me feel at least in some way better. I don't like expressing myself to people either. So I figured maybe if the people I was talking to didnt see or know who I was it would be easier. I've just started so i'm hoping somehow it'll change something. I cut myself through all my teenage years. I am now 21 and haven't had the habit of cutting for two years. A few months ago I had an incident but felt bad of myself. My scars are terribly public and people like to ask questions and it makes me feel nausea's and sick. I wish I had done them somewhere less public. But it seems when I get in such states I really don't care where they seem to be.

Probably the worst thing for me about cutting is people assume I do it for attention and to me people opinions dont matter but I can see their watching eyes on me, thinking things about me. Which I don't like. I prefer no one to have thoughts or interest in me. If you need any support or someone to talk to about cutting i'm definitely here because i've been through it and still suffer.